What I need to do if I fall in love with one guy while being gay?

[Usmanbek]

Hello everyone,
I am guy or gay I don't want mention. So I met with guy who is studied in Ireland 6 month ago, so I fall in love to him, I also told to him but he blocked me from all things. He is littlebit elder than me he is 27 years old but I am 18. Six month passed from this story I am yet loved and attracted to him. He newly arrived to him main country Turkey/Kahramanmarash. I am now in Turkmenistan, our government also strict and doing much pressure to us, I mean not only homosexuals they're doing to everyone. So base topic is what I need to do, I couldn't stop loving him, I am still sad, if he asked something from me that I can for example, if he ask can you give your heart, I will don't think and quickly I would give. Please give me advice:)

[Adam1978]

You need to accept that most guys aren't gay and they are certainly not comfortable having gays that loves them around. They simply don't want what you want. And the best way of make sure of that is to put a wall between you and them. It doesn't matter how much that hurt you. It makes them feel more secure that you don't do something they don't want. And that more important then your feelings.

[Usmanbek]

I am accepting and agree with your opinion. But I had never met that kinda guy who is so kind, lovely, respectfull to everyone. Just I can talk whole day with him, he's all words that in value of gold for me. I don't want any sexual things just I want to be more closer to him:(

[Avicenna]

I'm not really sure what you're asking here, but if he blocked you then he's not interested.

[Usmanbek]

I am not sure but he can be also like me, I can't forget him because he is so kind, he's kind heart no one exist.

[Angel_123]

way the pros and cons and be honest and give urself some time to think who is more compatible with you

[Usmanbek]

there is no guy in my area who is homosexual, they are hidden i think

[TurkishGirl_]

I know the man you're talking about. He is not gay...

[Usmanbek]

HiHi, nerden biliyorsun?

[TurkishGirl_]

He is a YouTuber.

[Usmanbek]

Hiimmm, how did you know? this kind of coincidence unbelievable. We met in January. We had very friendly conversation in the first, after I said everything. I don't wanna remember that thing, when I remember I wanna cry, So, think that if we love we will love with our whole heart.

[TurkishGirl_]

I understand but trust me, he's not gay.

[Usmanbek]

Yes, I know. So how did you guess it? I didn't give name

[TurkishGirl_]

You said the city he came from. It wasn't hard to guess.

[Usmanbek]

Are you fan of him or subscriber, and how long have you known him

[TurkishGirl_]

I sometimes watch his videos and we talked a few times on social media.

[Usmanbek]

How is good! You have chance to talk:) It is strange right talkin' people like me about one guy ahahh

[TurkishGirl_]

He is a person like everyone else:) I think you are exaggerating.

[Usmanbek]

Hmmm, I don't know, he is not everyone for me, it's ridiculous right I didn't see in real for to love:) But first we chat I feel his bona fides, respect and affection to people. Every time we talked, I was more and more impressed with him.
Actually, I should start university in September. I met him. I had decided to study in Ireland in order to really talk to him. However, since my country has never opened international flights, I had to stay here. So, everything gone for my disadvantage

[Izzyboom]

You'll find a guy who's interested in you. We all meet people we know are out of our league but we also meet people in our league. It will take time but you can get over him. Just give it time.

[Lottifan]

I know it’s hard but you must accept the fact that he’s not interested in you.