What I need to do if I fall in love with one guy while being gay?

Hello everyone,
I am guy or gay I don't want mention. So I met with guy who is studied in Ireland 6 month ago, so I fall in love to him, I also told to him but he blocked me from all things. He is littlebit elder than me he is 27 years old but I am 18. Six month passed from this story I am yet loved and attracted to him. He newly arrived to him main country Turkey/Kahramanmarash. I am now in Turkmenistan, our government also strict and doing much pressure to us, I mean not only homosexuals they're doing to everyone. So base topic is what I need to do, I couldn't stop loving him, I am still sad, if he asked something from me that I can for example, if he ask can you give your heart, I will don't think and quickly I would give. Please give me advice:)
What I need to do if I fall in love with one guy while being gay?
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