Need advice badly?

I’m not gonna lie I hate my life. Ever since my ex cheated on my 3 times. And I left I’ve been financially unstable. I got multiple loans for her and thought we were going to start a life together and wasted my time money and credit on her. I’ve been struggling ever since to keep a job and be financially stable again. All I want a normal life. Is it bad that if I had the chance to do a fresh restart in my life but I had to sacrifice myself right now I would do it? Not looking for sympathy or anything. This post isn’t for clout whatsoever ever!
Need advice badly?
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