Very hard to explain... but I am going through depression.
For my parents, I recently left my boyfriend of long years. They didn't even want to meet him and there wasn't any reason behind it, just fear of society and ego.
I was deeply in love with him, but I am financially dependent on my parents and I got scared that if I run away with him they wouldn't talk to me ever again or even accept me if one day I came back home. They raised me so it was hard to take the step. But right now I am regretting a lot, and I cry every day, because we were true soulmates and I always imagined a future with him, happy and married. I want to contact him but he deleted all his social media and changed his number so I couldn't reach him ever again. We were on long distance so it's hard for me to go and look for him. He must have been looking to get married to someone, because he always wanted to get married early and have children. Maybe he is already with somebody. But I wish I could turn back time. I am a student and I don't have a work, I live in another city near to where my parents live, they rented a house in the city I am right now for my college studies (it has been 3 years), and since many days I haven't gotten out of the house, I cry all the time and regret. I am a afraid it will go worse. I don't know what to do. I can't even reach him anymore.
