Did I lose her for good and it's too late?

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I was selfish and kept using her past (3 past relationships that had nothing to do with me) against her. For the longest, I've been raised with wrong concepts on how a woman should be like. It's all I ever knew.

During arguments, I would rub it in her face and at times even called her bad names or withdrew affection. She couldn't stand it anymore and broke up. A month after the break-up, I've realized what I lost; a good person. It's been 4 months now and she's won't come back.

I've been asking for too much to be honest. I'm not that great and she used to tolerate some of my other flaws. She couldn't handle getting disrespected anymore, ok understandable. I've been trying to win her back and did what my friends suggest such as showing outside her house with a small band, singing her favorite song with my awful voice, give her a bouquet of orchids (her favorite), buy her favorite cake, etc. Apart from that I've begged, asked for one last chance, told her I'll treat her good (I meant it), etc.

None of that worked. She's not coming back and actually got upset when I tried those suggestion. When I brought the band and was singing, she told us to get out and leave her alone. So I lost her for good? Any way to win her back? All I want is one last chance to prove her I've changed. I mean it.

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I don't care about a girl's past by now. I lost a great girl, someone worth it. I've been focusing on worthless things and didn't realize what I had.
Did I lose her for good and it's too late?
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