I still like the guy I rejected and I don't know what to do?

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A year ago I liked a guy who was one year older than me, and we were friends. We had great chemistry, texted until morning, played video games together, had deep conversations and so on. I liked him, and he found out, he told me he liked me too. It was a problem though, I didn't want him to find out I liked him because I knew I couldn't be with him. I wanted to get married in the future, have children and I was and AM a religious Catholic. He was an atheist and didn't want to convert, didn't believe in marriage and didn't want to get married. He also did not want any kids in the future.

So when he found out I panicked, and he was so happy because he liked me too but I rejected him. I told him the reasons why and it really broke him, I saw it. He literally broke on the inside although he tried to hide it. He started pouring out how sad he got and that Is as the first girl that he liked and that liked him back, and he liked my personality so much. He was devastated and so was I, but he got angry at me because I rejected him. He also told me that I would regret rejecting him, and to be honest he was kind of right.

Our friendship was ruined. He was never the same again and never spoke to me again. I did try to text him a few times (like 12 times) but he only responded with one word or didn't respond at all. A completely different person.

The problem is I still have feelings for him, and I don't know what to do. I miss our friendship and his company. But he doesn't want anything to do with me. I haven't met a guy with such a personality like his.

I mean I can't get together with him still, unless he doesn't convert and change his views but I doubt he will. But I miss our friendship.

What should I do? He haunts my thoughts all the time.

I still like the guy I rejected and I don't know what to do?
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