How come I don't have a soulmate?

I've been born into this world growing up in a Buddhist religious family thinking and believing that one day I gorgeous handsome prince charming would come chasing after me or meet me on the day I was born. But nobody came, my friends would talk to me a lot about relationships. But there's nobody that I like, so I tried killing myself because every time I lay awake I feel so lonely in my bedroom. And because of this loneliness it led to my depression. Sometimes, I have a feeling someone would lay right next to me but I think I could go crazy.
How come I don't have a soulmate?
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