Do I love her or the idea of someone as close as her?

I’ve known my girl best friend for 7 years. In that time we went through a 2 year break since we didn’t go to the same middle school, and we got in a couple fights that ended in short breaks. And yet the entire time I’ve liked her more then friends, my other friends tell me to distance myself for a bit but whenever I come back from doing that I end up liking her again. I don’t really want to like her now because I don’t want to hurt the friendship that we have.

She has told me how I’m her best friend but I’m worried that I’m going to be replaced since I’m moving 5 hours away. I’m not sure what to do but I have this feeling that as soon as I leave I’m going to get replaced by another guy who she’s friends with.

Not only that but lately I’ve been wondering if i like her or just the idea of having someone as close to me as she is, especially since she’s pretty much the only person I’m comfortable around.

Do I love her or the idea of someone as close as her?
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