hey guys, i’m a 32 year old female and my “boyfriend” is a 31 year old male. we have been together for 10 years and we don’t have any fun in the relationship. our hangouts is me going over to his house and just hanging out. we don’t go out on dates or go on vacation. he works hard. he is a carpenter so he works HARD! he has money, yet he doesn’t when it comes to me. he has money to buy beer, buy weed and food for himself or when he goes out with his friends. according to him, i’m not worth going out because all i do is complain. yes i complain because we don’t do anything and i complain because he was an absolute asshole when we got together. he tells me all the time that he has dreams to develop a company and that i deserve the world. however right now while we are young, we don’t do anything fun. it truly makes me sad. i don’t work, i quit my job a year ago so i can focus on school and get my degree. i finish in October :) i’ve become a huge homebody and i hate it. i don’t have friends so i don’t hangout with anyone, i don’t have money so i can’t do anything fun. i live in a huge city, but everything around me is crowded and traffic everywhere so i stay home. i hate my life and i don’t know how to fix it. I don't know how to make myself be happy without him. i feel like a huge part of arguing is i depend on him to do everything. that was my dream though, i wanted to do a lot of things with him, but i’ve come to realize that that’s not going to happen. i’ve sadly let my highschool friends go and now i don’t have anyone. mainly because one of them lives six hours away from me, the other one lives two hours away, the other one lives in my city but works has a child and a husband to take care of and the only one that’s single and is down to do anything only wants to go clubbing. clubbing is not my scene. i really have no idea what to do. i want a good group of girl friends, but since i’m a homebody that’s impossible to find.
I’m so sad and miserable with my own life and i’m struggling to find happiness?
