Can wanting a relationship simply ruin you?

So being a person who went 29 years without a relationship I felt as if I was missing out but most of you have seen my previous posts about the abusive relationship I was in with this girl where she was physically hitting me and calling me names. My thing is can it ruin you because the person I was before now feels like a memory and I feel like a shell of that person.

Can wanting a relationship simply ruin you?
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