Why I’m a feeling like this…?

[Anonymous]

I have really bad relationship anxiety, and I don’t know anymore if my reactions and feelings are valid or not. I feel anxiety in my stomach almost every time I think my boyfriend is looking at another girl, and sometimes it’s all in my imagination.

Yesterday, we were choosing a YouTube video to watch, and my boyfriend wanted to watch a guy who reacts to TikToks, someone we usually watch sometimes. But the clickbait showed girls exposing their boobs, and my first thought was: “You only want to watch this video to see boobs, you fell for the clickbait.” He said that wasn’t true, so I asked him why he specifically chose that video when it was the only one with girls in the thumbnail. He answered that it seemed like the only good video.

I don’t trust his explanation, and I believe that he only wanted to watch the video because of the clickbait. I don’t know how to shake these thoughts and feelings, they’re stuck in my mind. Does anyone have any advice on how I can get past this?

[Noredcarpet]

You have to dig deep within yourself to find the answers to that, if you have been betrayed in the past, treated as second, not think you are not pretty enough. If he has not once lost your trust, if your boundaries are the same, then it is safe to say he is not responsible for what is triggering this within you. You do not trust him, but why? Is it him or someone else? Look, if you already have what you love, who you love, access to that, you would not go chasing it in some clickbait for a few seconds of superficial pleasure of some stranger with boobs. He must be smarter, more mature than that, I hope. I know jealousy is one freaking nightmare and I know what toll this takes on you, and Im sorry about that, sincerely hope it works out for you two.

[DryGermanGuy]

You might want to get a prescription for Lorazepam or other anti-anxiety medication and see if that helps.

[In_Trance]

You need therapy.
This relationship is not for you. End it and fix yourself

[Asker]

Why do you think this relationship isn’t for me?

[In_Trance]

Because the damage has already been done and unfortunately it's not repairable.
You need to be alone for however long it takes to fix yourself

[Slave_submissive]

You deserve to feel better then that. Please love yourseld because i love you

[Anonymous]

Everyone looks both guys and women it's a part of nature

[Anonymous]

I think your reaction is valid.

[Asker]

Why? He didn’t choose that video just because of the clickbait. According to him he just wanted to see that guy react to TikToks like we use to watch