It’s a cozy night in Shanghai. I opened my old notebook and read some of my poetry from the past life when I wrote them.
Everything that I feel now, I have already felt sometime in the past. It feels like having a conversation with my younger self, who has captured beautiful thoughts of her into melodious words and kept it for me to read in time of wanting.
I read those poems, listen to the music and I feel peaceful, looking out at the sky and breathing in deeply.
I am alone and I don’t feel lonely. This a peaceful and relaxing moment.
I can see myself looking back to this very evening somewhere from the perspective of the future and thinking “I was so happy, peaceful, it was so beautiful.”
Why do most people need to be with someone necessary in order to not feel lonely?
Because, I am here by myself and I can’t imagine doing anything more enjoyable than what I am doing right now. Thinking, reading, singing along quietly, listening to soothing music and yet again feeling how alive I am and how perfect it is, to be right here, as I am. I feel the perfect peacefulness. I feel like having myself right here is the most romantic thing I could do tonight.
Do you notice and appreciate such moments?
Here’s a song I listened a few minutes ago, you might like it as well.
