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As I am Indian and since word got out that I have sex with men no one talks to be and don't want to be friends with me as most people make fun of me and so on...

But this one guy he stayed as my friend for more than half a decade after a year I realized that he want me to give him head. But we were doing this discreetly apart for my beard room every where else we usually act normal and this has gone on for more than half a decade and then one day he got married to a girl and stoped talking to me and won't even talk to me about anything normal and don't even want to run into me.

It's like he regret doing that with me.

It's obvious that he used me, but what I can't comprehend is that can some one pretend for more that half a decade like they cared about you because he never outed me as I am blowing himOr you think he was talking behind my back but no one told meHe is just afraid as he is married to a women now.

This may not make any sense. But I’m in a relationship I know I shouldn’t be in right now. Im really emotionally tied to this woman named Eve though I know we’re not the right match. I feel like breaking up with this woman is right thing to do. But I go crazy at the thought of Eve with another guy. Does this mean I’m crazy? I dunno how I’m going to handle this when the day comes. Eve is not 100% bad, and there’s lots of good things she does. But it’s a toxic relationship.

Here are the reasons can’t stay with her:

1.
I’m not 100% sure she’s faithful:

Eve has too many male friends. She’s thirsty for attention from other guys and pretends she’s not. Eve also has a history of sleeping around, having one night stands, and has been pregnant and aborted by 2 different men. Now she’s always fronting and barely wants sex with me.

2.
She’s very judgmental and ignorant:

She makes fun of people who are poor, living cheap looking apartment’s and houses. Even laughs at people who wear cheap clothes from Walmart. She always points out bad character traits I’m me and my family. But doesn’t like it when I do the same back to her.

3.
She likes giving attitude:

She always has issues with somebody. For example, she’s always yelling and cursing at people on the road when she drives. She used yell at me frequently until I started yelling back her. She still does it once in awhile, but not as often.

Giving all I said. I still can’t let her go and I don’t know why!