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I had a gender reveal with my boyfriend yesterday, and he posted a story with me and asked if he should tag me in it I said yeah ofc… I was tired I went to bed and got on instagram when I woke up and saw he didn’t tag me. And this was our baby shower together. So I was like wtf, I get all these notifications from everyone that I was tagged or mentioned in their stories except him. So I’m like that’s weird so I go to his page to see if he tagged me in the comments or something like that. He didn’t so now I’m kinda confused like why didn’t he tag me. So I started thinking he didn’t want some women to see me. So I think of a women that has come between us in the past. A women who he said he had no contact with and that was blocked and it’s in the past. So I said okay and went with that but something told me to check his followers and sure enough the women is there and they are mutuals. So I called him and I was asking him what’s going on because he told me she was blocked. He then tells me that she was blocked at the time he told me but apparently we had a fight and he unblocked her and added her again and she then added him. Mind you we have not broken up since January and that breakup lasted 4 hours because not long after that I found out I was pregnant and had to tell him. And we discussed our issues and decided we should get back together and work it out. It’s now June and we have not had any breakups or periods of us not communicating. I just feel like whatever fight he’s talking about that we had, after we made up why didn’t he block her again. And also why would he turn to her in the moment it got difficult with us. He claims he didn’t communicate with her but I don't know. So this morning I didn’t have much time to talk but I told him. We need to take a break for about a week and figure everything out. And I feel he braving me to feel insecure when he told me he didn’t like how I looked 2 minutes into our gender reveal

My relationship lasted 4.5 years, and it ended 2 weeks ago. We are doing the no-contact rule, so I can't discuss anything with him now. But, he decided to end it because he "felt like the bad guy," communication/compatibility issues, and my close-minded family (even though that was a minor issue out of everything). He said that he wanted to work on himself to understand his emotions/feelings better, make himself a better person, needed time/space, and he couldn't do it while we were together still. He also said he couldn't guarantee that he would return right now since he is unsure what he wants and has started therapy to figure that out. He discussed moving to another state since most of his family lives there, but he hadn't told me when he planned to leave. He even broke up with me over the phone and not in person. I asked to see him at least one more time in person to discuss it at least (we live 3 hours away from each other), and he said no.

I'm unsure how to feel about all of this besides a massive unfairness since I deserve the "best" version of him when he is done with therapy, and I didn't want to end it. I have researched his likelihood of returning online, and it seemed up in the air. The breakup wasn't the worst, and I know he still loves/cares about me to a certain degree since we did last this long. I feel like I am not getting all of the information about how he feels since he mentioned how he was "done/tired" of the relationship, but his plan after a month of no contact was to be "friends" (which could easily change now) initially with the breakup. What do you think? Do you think there's a chance of him returning after therapy? I know not to bank on it, but I wanted to see if other people were in a similar situation and what happened. His mom still supports me and is helping me process this the best she can. It feels weird because it felt rushed, and he seems indifferent about it all now. Like he even bought an engagement ring for me and everything.