Search Results: the point of giving up

I've had these folks following my Instagram, TikTok, and Snapchat for quite a while. In fact, even before I started the 'social media detox', when I was pretending to run for mayor in my city, I was mocking a girl because of her name and continued to talk about her when she blocked me; I only stopped the second time she told me to.

Anyway, I've started to see a pattern in at least two of these three buddies; they are consistently pro-Andrew Tate (a girlfriend-beater), and when I showed them proof they told me that it's not true, he did that because of x and y, and one of those friends also sent the group chat a picture looking like it was from the 1700s-1800s that was clearly referring to my family; he made some joke about my "great-grandfather" and unfortunately I had the tendency to let it slide. I think they were implying that I am stuck in the stone age, that because of my keto diet I have started to become way less "based" (an alt-right term, by the way) and way more liberal.

Not only do they support macho-man extremists like Tate, but they also support Jordan Peterson (I pointed out that reason for me not supporting Tate), and one of them asked me what is wrong with him. I pointed out that he is selfish, thinks the whole world revolves around Christianity (to which I was responded to with a "it does").

They seem to have prejudiced views about Muslims, usually about "Mohammad"(?) being a pedophile, and I was trying to challenge one person who is in blatantly blind support of Israel. I sent two messages in the group chat stating my expressions about Israel and Palestine. I was offended that he only liked my last message saying that both countries were frauds and need to be overtaken by Jesus, but not the one before it with a news link stating that the IDF killed an innocent five-year-old while at war with Hamas.

I regret ever giving information about my former co-worker from Target to this stupid prejudiced guy. I'm sure they hit up with each other.

I am not seeking validation otherwise, I would have posted a selfie and asked if you thought I was attractive. The truth is that I am not butt ugly and some girls will call me "okay" while others will say they have no attraction to me whatsoever. The reason I still can get girls is because I am okay looking, and some will settle for me. The thing is I am not a 6/10 or above. I am at best, a 5/10, on my best hair day.

The truth is that I persisted anyway, and I tried dating, regardless with optimism. I was cheated on, hit physically and ended up comparing myself with guys that I was left for. Yes, the girls I dated would leave me for other guys all the time. I remember the first time it happened, I cried, and I asked her, "is it because he is more attractive than me?" The girl told me, "Oh, stop. I am not answering that question." I still managed to regain confidence every time, but the same thing always happened. One girl told me, "It is like cars. I won't wash or take care of an ugly car." Because she broke up with me and took the new handsome guy camping with her own money. I asked her why she was treating him so much better than me and she responded with that car comparison. I also do not have a boring personality. I am fun, pretty smart and have a successful path laid out.

It has just been really rough, and I am at the point of just giving up. Maybe it is the girls I am dating? I will mention that I have only ever dated above my league so maybe I should date down instead?