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So I kept it to myself and decided to block him to get over those feelings, so I kept unblocking him and talking to him but he never said anything negative he would always tell me it's been a while and I feel like a shitty person, so it's 5 years now and I'm still in love with him but every time we talk it seems like his moved on, like he doesn't talk to me much like he used to, he doesn't ask me questions like he used to, and he also talks about this one girl he likes even tho I like him, I keep trying to move on as well but I can't , but i know that I was the bad person for blocking him for years and coming back, I think I've blocked him 10 times now but came back 4 months or 1 year later, I already told him "I love you" and he responds "I love you to buddy" so I just know his moved on, when I text him he takes hours , days , or even weeks to reply and if he does he'd say he forgot or he is seeing the message now, I really wanna move on and I want your help on that, should I just tell him goodbye and move on? Because he is the first guy I've loved but I messed up so I'm the one to blame, every time he texts me my stomach drops, and everytime I text him I just don't wanna stop because I can text him for hours and hours and never get tired but he seems to always respond minutes or hours late, he doesn't text me good morning anymore or goodnight I really miss the old us, I wonder how it would have been if I never blocked him and just kept talking to him, maybe we would have been something , so I was thinking should I just text him for the last time and say my goodbye? I really need help with this answer because I can't decide and I'm overthinking too much

I met this guy online a few years ago from a dating website. He is from England and I’m from USA, and we dated online at first for a little while. As time went on, he stated his mental health problems and how he couldn’t be in a long distance relationship anymore. I didn’t hold him back so he left, but we had been texting on and off throughout the years. He wishes me a happy birthday and holiday, stuff like that.

within the last few months, we reconnected a lot more like more phone calls to texting. He even admitted to realizing that I might be the girl for him since throughout all these years, no woman near him had made him feel the same as I made him feel. He even had a plan where if we meet up within the next 2 years then we can get married considering how much we both went through. I was flattered but concerned since I didn’t want to get hurt again if he wasn’t ready mentally, so I asked if he was sure. He said he wasn’t and then stopped talking to me for a couple of months for a mental break only to reappear as if nothing happened.

I asked him if he still wanted to do that 2 year plan and he said sure, we text somewhat often still now. But, he told me recently that he joined a dating app just because of boredom and was laughing at how women messaged him for sex. I was confused since based off what he confessed, i should be the only one he needs to be focused on. I’m just nervous now that he’s going to try to date other women before we actually meet up and then have his feelings confused on who he likes more, or just trying to have random encounters in the meantime. I mean I can’t control him but we do have a plan to meet up by the end of this year or next year so I don’t understand why would he do this. Please share your thoughts below, thanks.