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I’m 30 and have never dated a girl, I went on one date back when I was 21 and lost my virginity on that date and then I had absolutely nothing for the next 5 years when I made it to 3rd base with a girl who was mutual friends with someone I knew. That was 3 years ago and again, nothing since then. I just feel like at this point, there’s no hope left and that girls won’t want to date someone my age who has so little experience. I have become pretty depressed because of this situation and have even turned to drugs, alcohol, and gambling to numb myself cope with the fact that I might be alone forever. I just think that all girls will reject me for being so inexperienced for a 30 year old.

Back many years ago when I was 20, I was going in and out of psych hospitals and suicidal because I couldn't find a virgin to lose my virginity to.

One day, I met a girl on a dating app and really hit it off. She was 16 and the daughter of a paramedic. I was an EMT at the time and young myself. We were only 4 years apart in age.

Fast forwarding, we talked for a long time and we agreed to meet. I got us a hotel room and I drove 8 hours from my state to hers. We went on a date then went to the hotel and we ended up losing our virginities to each other.

After our weekend fling, she told me she did not want a relationship with me. I was heartbroken. We continued to talk for 2 weeks until one day I made her made her angry and she said she never wanted to see me again.

I was in college and 8 months later, I decided to find where she lived and drove up there again with a friend to ask her out again and apologized. Her dad answered the door and called the cops. I went back to my hotel and the police knock on the door and draw guns on me like a fugitive. I was arrested for stalking and I was later placed in shackles and transported to the county jail.

Most people by the time they hit their late 20s have had experience with love, relationships, intimacy, and sex. Hell, most high school teens have likely had a girlfriend or boyfriend or two. Sadly, I am approaching my 30s and never had a real relationship. I have had close encounters with girls before, but it was mostly online and the ones I did meet it was very brief and didn't result in anything real or serious. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old girl and it was a one time situation and I haven't even so much touched a woman since. For most people, having had a boyfriend or girlfriend is a normal experience, but for me, it is almost impossible.

This is what I am seeking in a woman:

• Ideally between the ages of 18 and 27 (although she can be slightly older if most or all other criteria match. 18 is the lowest because, of course, going any lower runs many risks legally and ethically, not because I don't want to per say)
• A REAL woman, not a transgender
• Ultimately desires marriage and a family (marriage doesn't have to occur immediately of course)
• Of course, desires to fall in love and have a romantic bond (not aromantic)
• Willing and able to bond via sex (not asexual)
• We are each other's first loves (she has no previous romantic bonds with a guy/never been in love... I am not talking strictly about virginity here)
• 5+/10 rank in physical attractiveness (a beautiful woman is a bonus, but not at all a deal breaker. She can be average in attractiveness... also I know this is subjective, but I am being general)
• Not black (I just never really was attracted to black women)
• Doesn't do drugs and is not an alcoholic

Some very desirable bonuses but NOT hardline deal breakers:

• She is a Christian
• She is white
• Has a good family background

About ME:

• I am 27, turning 28 in a few months
• I have never had a real girlfriend
• I have a decently good-paying job as a frontend software developer
• I currently live at home, but seeking independence when I can
• I am 5'6" in height
• I am average looking at best
• I own a decent car and a Class A RV
• I am very affectionate with women if given an opportunity
• I want to get married and have a family one day
• I am monogamous

Well, what do you think?

Growing up, I was a major outcast and suffered with a lot of severe mental health issues. I had interests that were obsessive and unusual, such as an interest in fire alarms, phone systems, and intercoms. I missed a lot of school due to mental health reasons that required hospitalization and residential treatment. I hardly fit in with anyone at school, and girls especially didn't pay any attention to me. I was also (and still am) short in height at 5'6". I missed a lot of developmental milestones that I reap today.

I was never athletic in school. I was not involved in sports really. I was, however, involved in boy scouts up to age 16 and transitioned into the fire explorer programs.

Socially, I have always struggled. I was hoping adulthood would be better, but it turned out to be worse and a nightmare.

I am 27, almost 28, and I never had a real girlfriend. My absolute biggest regret that kills me to this day is not experiencing young romance. I so wish I was able to form those memories with a girl when I was young who was around my age.

It wasn't until I was around 19 when I had my first kiss with this girl I found repulsive to me. I tried dating her, but it just didn't feel right. She just was not attractive to me.

Also, there was this girl named Izzy that was around 15 when I was 18. Although we cuddled and I kissed her, she became a transgender man and resents me. There is no going back there.

When I was 20, I lost my virginity to another 16 year old girl during a weekend fling. She did not want anything to do with me romantically after that. In fact, I was convicted of stalking because of her (long story).

After that, all I have had is online things with girls where they rejected me upon meeting me in person because I was unattractive to them.

I haven't touched a girl in 7 years. Meanwhile, all my peers and former friends I have known are married and have kids.

I want a woman without a romantic past where we can be each other's first loves.