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Growing up, I was a major outcast and suffered with a lot of severe mental health issues. I had interests that were obsessive and unusual, such as an interest in fire alarms, phone systems, and intercoms. I missed a lot of school due to mental health reasons that required hospitalization and residential treatment. I hardly fit in with anyone at school, and girls especially didn't pay any attention to me. I was also (and still am) short in height at 5'6". I missed a lot of developmental milestones that I reap today.

I was never athletic in school. I was not involved in sports really. I was, however, involved in boy scouts up to age 16 and transitioned into the fire explorer programs.

Socially, I have always struggled. I was hoping adulthood would be better, but it turned out to be worse and a nightmare.

I am 27, almost 28, and I never had a real girlfriend. My absolute biggest regret that kills me to this day is not experiencing young romance. I so wish I was able to form those memories with a girl when I was young who was around my age.

It wasn't until I was around 19 when I had my first kiss with this girl I found repulsive to me. I tried dating her, but it just didn't feel right. She just was not attractive to me.

Also, there was this girl named Izzy that was around 15 when I was 18. Although we cuddled and I kissed her, she became a transgender man and resents me. There is no going back there.

When I was 20, I lost my virginity to another 16 year old girl during a weekend fling. She did not want anything to do with me romantically after that. In fact, I was convicted of stalking because of her (long story).

After that, all I have had is online things with girls where they rejected me upon meeting me in person because I was unattractive to them.

I haven't touched a girl in 7 years. Meanwhile, all my peers and former friends I have known are married and have kids.

I want a woman without a romantic past where we can be each other's first loves.

I am 27, turning 28 in a matter of months, and I never had a real girlfriend. Meanwhile, I am watching all my former friends and peers I have known growing up get married, have kids, or both. I mean fuck... even most high school kids have probably had more relationship experience than me.

I am only wanting a woman where we can be each other's first loves. Essentially, I am seeking a woman without a romantic past. I may end up alone the rest of my life, and I am fearful of that. I never imagined I would be this old and in this situation.

To make matters worse, I am starting to get too old for college age women. Why would they want an old fart like me? Sadly, the younger women are my best option if I am going to get a woman without a romantic past.

I feel like my whole world is falling apart. I always wanted a girlfriend, wife, and a family of my own ever since I was a kid. It is beyond disheartening to know that may never happen. I feel incomplete and missing my other half.

I haven't touched a woman in over 7 years either, so I am involuntary celibate. The frustration just mounds and builds more and more overtime.

As children we start off as innocent people but when we encounter the real world we lose our childlike innocence. By interacting with other kids we become altered by the environment we get influenced The stuff we see on TV media internet
At what age does it start?

We've established a friendship in court (yes, for real), but only right after he sat next to and introduced himself to my mom. He's 24 years old, and I'm 22, so we are close in age. He has a military background and he is all about God and America. He seems to be really conservative. Me personally, I'm more libertarian (not liberal, because there is a difference between the two... I'll explain below).

Libertarian- an advocate or supporter of a political philosophy that advocates only minimal state intervention in the free market and the private lives of citizens.
Liberal- a supporter of policies that are socially progressive and promote social welfare.
Conservative- a person favoring free enterprise, private ownership, and socially traditional ideas.

If anything I lean closer to "conservative" than "liberal". Being religious myself pushes me personally even more to the right.

Anyway back to the topic, we went to the gym for some of the first few weeks since we have started our friendship. Sometimes when he is late to the gym or he doesn't even arrive at all, he'll say sorry he's f*cked up, he's drunk, etc. I don't drink, but he does.

Three weeks ago on Sunday, he promised he would text me Tuesday to see if I have recovered. But he didn't text me on Tuesday. I texted him on Thursday asking him "how you doin?", I miss you bud, when you free to meet up?


After talks with my therapist and my case manager, I have decided to send him even more texts. I said, "Hey man, wanna come work out?" Instantly, he texted me saying hey man just got my phone back online over the bills. I told him basically that it sucks and asked him again when he's free to meet up. He said to let him deal with "(his) crap first" and he would see me "next week". He literally sent me subsequent texts discussing his bills and he said he would discuss "some family BS" in person.

The last text I received from him was June 7th. Today is June 20th and I still have yet to see this guy.