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"We don't have money". I first heard that when I was 9 years old. I couldn't have candy or pepsi cola or juice or something to eat at school.

This grew into a bigger problem over time. I had less clothes to wear by the age of 12. I walked with holes in shoes and one time the shoes were even openly exposing my feet and I walked like that to school in Germany. Got bullied and mobbed.

I brought this up several times to my parents and I felt either ignored, dismissed or attacked (they were toxic and abusive). I picked up on that pattern of outcome and that it's pointless to ask for new clothes, shoes and food for lunch. So I stopped asking and could do nothing but let life proceed and focus on fast forwarding my life until I could make my own money while feeling like I was set on fire from poverty. I was 15 years old when I stopped asking. I considered getting money and essentials is on me and no one else (duh!).

It also got me thinking on a secondary question. If i were to go on a date with a girl and she asks about my childhood and I say it like it is, would that send her running away from me?