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My boyfriend and I have been long-distance dating for closer to 4 years, and it's been a rollercoaster for many reasons. But, recently, we both finally had an opportunity to spend a night together at a hotel and enjoy ourselves. As soon as we walked in since I had not seen him for some time, he wanted sex. I wanted to do it as well because, mentally, I thought it would be fun for us both. However, while we were doing it, he kept telling me not to take my shirt off and other stuff that seemed distant. He finished and was quiet, giving a stand-offish vibe afterwards. I kept asking him what the issue was, and he insisted it was nothing. Finally, once I got ready for the event he wanted to go to, he stated that he was worried about my health since I had gotten "bigger."

My weight has fluctuated a lot throughout the years in early adulthood, especially with working and college. When we met, I was on the smaller side, but it was an unhealthy time for me, hardly eating. I got on the hormonal IUD for him, and that caused me to gain a lot of weight.

I started crying and asked if he was ashamed of me, if he was still wanting me in that way, the works basically because of my body. He apologized a while later about it, and admitted saying that I deserve better which was also weird. I'm not sure how to really feel or go about this since he is health-crazy and wants to make sure I live a long life with him. However, his behavior did not match up to what he was saying. I mentioned it to a few friends to which they said that he might have seen better and now has a desire for that, or he's using health as a scapegoat to cover up his lack of wanting me now. What do you think? I'm afraid he doesn't find me attractive anymore but the weight is mainly because of him wanting this birth control in me. Do you think he is just using me for sex/companionship? Does he actually love me?

******My Ex's Birthday is November 5th. I had a FEELING He MIGHT Try to Be More "Kind" during this Time. I admit to Being RUDE and CRUDE Before all of This After I Broke it OFF so We Sort of Stopped Calling and Talking and Messaging.(An Occasional Uncivil Email Between us. lol) However, I have been More Civil and Better Behaved lately and He is Coming around on My FB Page to Comment. Is he Trying to Butter me UP so Perhaps I will Continue the Birthday "Love Tradition" of Sending Cards and Gifts Or just Trying maybe to Get us Both on Some Same Page as Far as Our Relationship Really Stands? by the way: He still Has my Pix Up on his FB Cover and All of Our Love Messages from The Past and I am His ONLY FB FRIEND. What's your own Opinion? Any Help is Appreciated. xxoo