My girlfriend broke up with me the other day. She has been asking for more attention and love for months. I just started a new job teaching, while running for office (takes lots and lots of time and energy). On top of that, I’m battling severe depression. I admit, I wasn’t giving her the attention I should have been. I wasn’t slow dancing with her in the living room like we used to. I wasn’t sitting down and having genuine conversations. When I wasn’t working or campaigning, I was on the couch or sleeping.
She begged me to get help for my depression, but I always put it off. She finally had enough, and broke it off. The next day, I went to the store and got her flowers and her favorite things, but she said it was too late. She said I should’ve been putting in that effort before. She said it killed her and she loves me as much as she always has, but she had to do it. She said she didn’t want to break up, she had to break up. We both cried together for four days. I asked her if we’d ever get back together, but she wouldn’t give me a definite yes or no. I said my final goodbye, and she held her composure for the most part. But, when I walked out the door, I could hear hear wailing. I felt terrible, but I didn’t know what to do.
I moved out, and have left her alone. I signed up for therapy, and have been going to appointments. I have my prescription antidepressants on the way. My eyes have been opened, I want to fix it. I own my mistakes. It was 100% my fault, I wish I had realized this before the breakup. I want to better myself, and get mentally healthy. I know she’s my soulmate, and I need to show her that I will have changed for the better. How much time do I give her? What do I do when I contact her again? Do you think she’d consider trying again? Please help.
