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I’m starting to realize that maybe men just don’t like me, I’m going to be 30 soon & never been in a proper relationship. I don’t want kids at least but I really don’t think I’m unattractive, I have self esteem issues so my opinion changes. But I’ve been on the dating apps for years on and off, my interest in them just became lesser over the years. Getting matches are never the issue it’s just it working out, always ghosting, fizzling out, etc. I’m told I’m cute/attractive, I never get asked out by guys in person, I can confidently say I’ve never been approached by a guy I found physically attractive. Back when I was 23 I dated someone briefly & I felt so offended by only being able to attract him it felt like settling I couldn’t be with him, I’ve been alone this whole time that shows you how men feel about me. When I was younger and around people my age more often I was told these guys found me attractive but they never did anything about it. The fact that beautiful people are always taken it makes me realize I’m maybe just not good enough. Isn’t it strange being as old as I am & still not meeting someone that I actually like? I’m not asking for a lot: good looks, taller than me (doesn’t have to be 6+ ft), educated, good sense of humor, not a cheater etc. I feel like I’ve genuinely become less interested in dating with my experience, I have a lower than average sex drive too I think

One of the reasons why I have trouble dating or getting a man. Is I tell guys where I live ( In a very rural area) By rural, I don’t mean a cabin on land and a person can easily drive 30 miles and there’s a city of activities and shopping.

No, I live in a deserted place. That not even my bank is nearby. And the local food is gas stations and the nearby cities are over a 1 hour drive or 3.

Then once guys look at my living situation. They say “fuck that”. And I’m back searching for someone who is true to their word and they are actually looking for love.

For context, I'm 17F, and a Senior in high school. My bus gets there pretty early, about 5 minutes before the others do. A while back, I met a guy. Let's call him Ryan (17M). And once he arrives at school, he always comes and sits down next to me on the stairs. For the last two or so months, he's been getting really close to me. And I don't know if he's leading me on, or whether or not he likes me. So, I'm going to list 3-4 things, and hopefully, I can get some advice on that.

• 1: At an assembly a few weeks ago, he was just sitting there, looking into my eyes, not saying anything. And then one of my friends suggests he should sit and turn around so he could see, and he came up and sat next to me, and was leaning into me the entire assembly, showing me stuff on his phone.
• 2: A week + 1/2 ago, I carried a baggy red overcoat to school, and I had set it down on the stairs. We talked normally, and when we went to get up, he grabbed it, took off his hoodie, and put it on. I wore his, and he wore mine, for the day. He returned my overcoat back to me but didn't want to take his hoodie back, so I still have it.
• 3: About 2 days ago, he took my hand and was comparing his hand's size to mine. (mine is significantly smaller.) He turned my wrist over, and took the bracelet that I was wearing, off. Then again, he wore it for the whole day and then gave it back.
• 4: Yesterday, we were sitting, and he asked to play the game I was playing. I handed him my phone, and he was just playing. I was talking with someone, and was just letting him mindlessly play. He poked my side, told me it had turned off, and went to hand me the phone. Since I was busy I just told him the code. (a mistake I know.) My other friend left, and I looked over and he was just mindlessly scrolling through my phone, going through my photos and apps. (I had a few photos of him in my phone, which he smiled at.)

And here we are. Advice?