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So my girlfriend of almost four years (live together) has always talked about her teenage crush (how she liked his personality, loved hanging out with him, his physical traits and etcetera), they never did anything physical that I know of (kind of untouched chemistry the way she talks about him), they've been friends on FB, Snapchat and Instagram since I met her but they weren't talking until early December of last year. here's the start of my issue, there was secrecy behind it. How I know was during December my phone broke and I had borrowed her spar phone and went on a family trip for a week to go Christmas shopping (while she was at uni studying for exams) and I didn't have the money to fix my phone and shop for presents. I got multiple all cap texts popped up from her best friend basically saying "OMG _____ MESSAGED YOU?". I talked to my sister about it and he said I should respect her privacy but talk to her about it and I did. When I asked her about it and why she was so excited about it and all, I asked what he said and she said he basically just said hi (which I found suspect) so I asked if I could see the message and she said she deleted it because she was scared. Last week she said told me after she went out with her friend in the story at the bar that he messaged her and asked to if she wanted to hangout, she said "obviously I'm not going to but what do you think" I was a little awkward but I told her like it to her but please handle it respectfully. She was acting weird all night after that and I couldn't get it out of my head why for days until I went through her phone and found this

I don't like or find her response respectful. It seems like she gave him a the right away on a night I'm busy. She knows I would never be okay with her going out with another guy and I feel like she completely entertained it. I know I'm wrong, should I feel this way and what should I do? I kinda feel cheated on already. What should I do?

I started “seeing” this girl a couple months ago and it took a while but we started to hang out and have lots of sex. Talked about things that are more serious such as our past and what we’d possibly like for our futures individually or together. But I always saw in her that she was not very serious in actually getting to know me or be with me. She just had fun with me and pushed away anything that was below the surface, mostly. Then after a while of having sex, and meeting at our places and having few dates to bars or restaurants - she voiced her loss of interest in different ways and it hurt me and made me feel less than and at fault for being too serious or not enough, etc. So then I tried for about a week or maybe a bit more here and there to talk to her and make changes and scale back so that we can still see each other and have sex without expectations (basically I was willing to settle and sell myself short of what I really wanted/needed to feel good with someone). She still pushed me back and said we should split ways. I let her go. She then added me back on snap me a week later and tested all kind of stuff relating to having sex and how she misses me and wants me inside her and cuddle her, even started saying that she’s in love with me and asking me if I am in love with her. Etc. then I called her and found out that she was drunk and a little high. She was out of town for family Christmas. She told me that few weeks from now she wants to see me when she comes back. The next day was Christmas Eve and I called to wish her merry Christmas and all that. No answer. So I went no contact. A month goes by but she was still on my snap. Watching my stories. But she would never post none or had me restricted from seeing it. Then she started posting pics and I saw one where she was back out of town with some guys. No idea who they are. I still didn’t contact and stopped watching her stories. Then she deleted me after posting few more pics and I didn’t watch her story.