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I am 27, turning 28 in a matter of months, and I never had a real girlfriend. Meanwhile, I am watching all my former friends and peers I have known growing up get married, have kids, or both. I mean fuck... even most high school kids have probably had more relationship experience than me.

I am only wanting a woman where we can be each other's first loves. Essentially, I am seeking a woman without a romantic past. I may end up alone the rest of my life, and I am fearful of that. I never imagined I would be this old and in this situation.

To make matters worse, I am starting to get too old for college age women. Why would they want an old fart like me? Sadly, the younger women are my best option if I am going to get a woman without a romantic past.

I feel like my whole world is falling apart. I always wanted a girlfriend, wife, and a family of my own ever since I was a kid. It is beyond disheartening to know that may never happen. I feel incomplete and missing my other half.

I haven't touched a woman in over 7 years either, so I am involuntary celibate. The frustration just mounds and builds more and more overtime.

Love. Not platonic I-wanna-be-your-forever-friend but that romantic, sexual, I-want-you-in-my-life-forever-and-in-my-bed-every-night love. That love that you happily and eagerly allow to consume your life.

If there was only ONE soulmate in the world for you, then most people would never fall in love (because they would never find their one soulmate) and no one would ever fall in love more than once. Over the course of fifty years, I have been in love seven times and my longest relationship lasted 19 years. That number surprises me but I did not quickly fall in love with any of them; the briefest of those relationships lasted at least a year.

How many times have you been in love? If you are not in love now, are you open to falling in love with someone in the future?

I’ve been with my girlfriend Linda for 2 years. I really love Linda but I’m not sure if she’s faithful. I’m uncomfortable with all her male friends, I’ve lost sleep over it. She brags that they want her and she refuses to cut them out of her life. She has this guy friend named Roscoe. They’re relationship is a bit sketchy. Linda has travelled to Miami with Roscoe in the past. I looked at Roscoes Instagram and didn’t like the comments I saw Linda post on his page 4 years ago. The comments said “I miss you😍”. Roscoe is another guy friend who wants her.

I don’t wanna break up with Linda but I don’t like being played either. 3 weeks ago she mentioned again how Roscoe wants her and protected her in Miami. I got so mad that I opened up an online dating profile, and started talking to a woman named Tracy in Toronto. I did this out of spite.

I honestly thought Tracy was gonna turn ghost like most women online. But then things got out of control and me & Tracy really started to connect. I face time Tracy everyday for an hour. I think I’m really starting to like Tracy and she’s falling in love with me. She’s willing to drive 8 hours to my city. I really enjoy her virtual company.

But now I’m starting to feel guilty because it’s not confirmed my girlfriend is cheating. What should I do?