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I know it sounds like a really stupid question. My anxiety is typically pretty bad, even worse when it comes to working & social interactions. Prior to this job, I worked in financial aid for ~2 years. It started out stressful but I ended up getting good feedback from mgmt/my metrics were apparently one of the better on the team. I sought new work due to the workload at the time & wanting better pay. Now I’m in my 4th week & this is a school I’ve been trying to get into for a hot minute.

I’ve trained with the mgr & supervisor, both have told me I’m doing well & I’m not even asking for feedback (yet). Mgr felt the need to let the whole team know that I was picking up fast when I was first introduced to them. This job is more in depth vs the last job & she even told me that they only hire people with experience now bc of how much there is to it. Prior to this wk, I was w/ the mgr training & got that 1:1 attention. Now, they’ve thrown me into the deep end & I’m doing *work work*. I have SO many questions & just message the supervisor, too many unknowns. I have notes I took & training resources but still feel like I might need direction if I’m working something new, especially if I didn’t work through an actual scenario before.

I’m not sure if I’m expecting hand holding in the sense of wanting more extensive training or they’re just expecting me to ask as I go, as I work through a new task. The supervisor said that they expect me to ask a ton of questions & she said something today like “I think you caught onto doing an estimate quicker than I did when I was first training”. I know they wouldn’t lie to me & I guess that reassurance should be enough to get me through the brunt of it but it just never is. I REALLY WANT TO MAKE THIS JOB WORK.

Prior to this job, I worked in financial aid for ~2 years. That was my 1st time ever working in the field but before that job I was an academic advisor. Early on during training when I was on a call with a trainer, I ended up breaking down crying bc I felt overwhelmed. I ended up pushing through & the trainers let my new team know that I was doing well. Eventually ended up having higher metrics compared to a lot of people on my team. Anxiety was always there but I got *better*, I was miserable at that job though due to the workload.

Now I’m in my 3rd week working for another school remotely in FA again, this is a school I’ve been trying to get in at for almost as long as I was at my other job (mostly bc of pay). I’m training by myself with the manager & I like her so far, she keeps telling me that I’m doing a good job (I’m not asking) & she felt the need to let the whole team know that I’m doing good/picking up fast when I was introduced to them earlier this week. This job is more in depth vs the last job & she even told me that they only hire people with experience now bc of how much there is to it. When she first taught me something new, it took a few tries & I picked it up, then she teaches me something else & I get it the first try.

I made my first 2 calls today & I felt shaky, she also said nicely that the first few calls will feel like that/ it was obvious it was one of my first calls but I did a good job. I felt like a wreck + then she gave me another assignment of something I caught onto before but I ended up getting stuck this time. I was obv frustrated & it was right before I was done for the day but I just couldn’t think straight bc I felt so upset with my progress.

Am I being too hard on myself? Am I right to believe this might not be a good fit for me? I’ve been so upset since I clocked out & am dreading tomorrow.