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We all have a darker side within us.

Sometimes it manifests in anger, violence, infidelity and other impulsive acts.

I spent a lot of time meditating on my shadow self, my lust, vanity and desire for sexual affection, my wrath and desire for change. My hate and long held wounds from abuse and class struggle as well as the frailty of the mortal form.

It hasn't always been easy, but in accepting and integrating my shadow self I find I'm a fuller, happier and less conflicted person. I find that I get more done, and that I'm less bound by the will of others, particularly when they are not operating in my best interest.

One of the results of this has been an examination of my adult sexual relationships and accepting polyfidelity as a more fulfilling option for myself.

Another has been to let go of a well paying but toxic job, in favor of freedom, entrepreneurial endeavor and a focus on my health and family.

Have you Integrated your shadow?
If you did, what did you learn or change?

Would you try it?

Do you prefer repression? If so please explain.

My own standards are to date someone who is on par with me more or less. I’m not perfect. Not a saint. I’ve been told I’m attractive but I know I’m no young Brad Pitt. However I am independent, got a good job, in good health, have a very interesting past and some fun hobbies.

There was only one time in my life I found a woman who was truly on par with me. It tragically didn’t work out because she met me at a bad time in my life. There was also one time I swung for the fences in college and went after a girl who was “out of my league.” She actually approached me first but I had zero game back then and screwed it all up.

But anyway virtually all the women I’ve met who were really into me in last few years weren’t exactly on par. However most of them were confident I would like them. I tried dating a girl who I saw potential in but she had very serious emotional issues (family abuse) that I wasn’t equipped to handle.

Anyway confidence is great. But why is it that women seem to daydream unrealistically about they are entitled to in dating vs. men?