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I really hate life. And not just my life personally, I hate the notion of existence in this steaming pile of shit world we live in. The cost of every day essentials like housing, healthcare, food, gas just makes sick to my stomach. The way humans treat each other is absolutely appalling. Unnecessary insults like incel, femcel, simp, and pick me are grade A examples of what a contemptible species humans are. We are the only ones who have to pay to exist in this world. Humans are more sophisticated than all other species , yet somehow we still live by social Darwinistic survival of the fittest mindset. We find anything and everything to fight each other about. You don’t think the same way I do, therefore you’re a stupid piece of trash and evil!! This is the tip of the iceberg on what is wrong with our world. I could write a novel on how much I detest the human species, and being a part of them.

For context I am 22 and recently graduated college.

During my senior year of highschool there was a girl who was two years younger than me. Its a long story and hard to explain but essentially we both had a crush on each other for like 2 years at this point but had never dated. At this point, knowing I was about to graduate, I was scared of dating her. At the same time, I was a little sad that I wasted the last couple years and never dated her while I could.

there's more to the story but I'll keep it brief: we were really, really into eachother (based on my own experience and what her friends have told me) but we never dated, and when we tried in the summer before I went to college we got into an emotion-fuled fight and really hurt eachother. I think we both just knew that with me in college and her still in highschool it was not going to work. And being young and dumb we said stupid things to each other.

During my freshman year I asked one of her friends if she was still mad at me and she said no, in fact, she wanted me to text her. We apologized to each other and I told her I wanted to at least be friends and she said she felt the same. But we drifted apart and I haven't really spoken to her since then.

I am probably overthinking this but I wonder if she's still into me. She is the most attractive girl I've ever met even after all this time. She always views my stories on instagram and snap, but we never talk. We both dated a few people over the years but nothing has lasted.

Do you think there's a chance she still might me interested in me? Or am I crazy and wishfulling thinking. I just hate that we never really had a chance to actually try at dating.

I want to know if I need to finally let go and move on if there could be a chance for us.