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I’m 30 and have never dated a girl, I went on one date back when I was 21 and lost my virginity on that date and then I had absolutely nothing for the next 5 years when I made it to 3rd base with a girl who was mutual friends with someone I knew. That was 3 years ago and again, nothing since then. I just feel like at this point, there’s no hope left and that girls won’t want to date someone my age who has so little experience. I have become pretty depressed because of this situation and have even turned to drugs, alcohol, and gambling to numb myself cope with the fact that I might be alone forever. I just think that all girls will reject me for being so inexperienced for a 30 year old.

Back many years ago when I was 20, I was going in and out of psych hospitals and suicidal because I couldn't find a virgin to lose my virginity to.

One day, I met a girl on a dating app and really hit it off. She was 16 and the daughter of a paramedic. I was an EMT at the time and young myself. We were only 4 years apart in age.

Fast forwarding, we talked for a long time and we agreed to meet. I got us a hotel room and I drove 8 hours from my state to hers. We went on a date then went to the hotel and we ended up losing our virginities to each other.

After our weekend fling, she told me she did not want a relationship with me. I was heartbroken. We continued to talk for 2 weeks until one day I made her made her angry and she said she never wanted to see me again.

I was in college and 8 months later, I decided to find where she lived and drove up there again with a friend to ask her out again and apologized. Her dad answered the door and called the cops. I went back to my hotel and the police knock on the door and draw guns on me like a fugitive. I was arrested for stalking and I was later placed in shackles and transported to the county jail.

Most people by the time they hit their late 20s have had experience with love, relationships, intimacy, and sex. Hell, most high school teens have likely had a girlfriend or boyfriend or two. Sadly, I am approaching my 30s and never had a real relationship. I have had close encounters with girls before, but it was mostly online and the ones I did meet it was very brief and didn't result in anything real or serious. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old girl and it was a one time situation and I haven't even so much touched a woman since. For most people, having had a boyfriend or girlfriend is a normal experience, but for me, it is almost impossible.

For my first relationship, my girlfriend asked what I wanted for my birthday and I had told her to lose my virginity with you. She was also a virgin so on my birthday, we did it.
What about my future wife? Should I tell her I lost my virginity on my birthday or keep it a secret? I feel like my future wife wouldn’t want to celebrate my birthday after knowing that it was the day I got f*ked. Turns out my ex girlfriend was lying to me. She wasn’t a virgin at all and knew what she was doing. She rode me, sucked on me, literally did everything to me. She went full send on me.

I am 28 years old and never had a real girlfriend. I haven't even so much touched a women in over 7 years. I almost had to sell my soul to lose my virginity to a teen several years younger than me when I was 20.

I am mostly introverted and short in height (5'6). I spend a lot of my time engineering web apps.

I have been told women today have set their standards so high that they are almost impossible to meet by the average (and below average) man. Sadly, most of my peers I have known growing up are married with kids. I am left behind.