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My Ex boyfriend of 8 Months told me at the month 8: "I enjoy what we have in the present, I'm not sure if it stays. I don't see a future for us" For me that was a reason to break up. Because till month 8/ he wasn't able to communicate our future, his emotions or anything in regard of our relationship. He wasn't even sure if he wants to move away from home. If I didn't asked I would have never knew how he felt.

My second boyfriend now: After all that I shared with him in the 1 year of our relationship he opened up to me in month 6 but after I ask. Now little by little he can talk about things regarding our relationship but it is still a long way till he can tell me without me asking him what hurts him or not. This makes me very sad. As for now, after all the things I sacrificed for him in regard of time and money he told me: let's try out if it works out."

Am I pathetic to end things because the person doesn't see a future for us?

I didn't want to ask about this becouse im a bit ashamed of it, i just scared it with some people in DM's but i want some opinions on this.

I found out some messages of my ex with other girls i didn't know. They were talking about going to date, kissing and some dirty talks. He even went out with some of them.

I was mad so i confronted him but his reaction got me even more furious. He told its none if my business and he can do whatever he want and then even told me im a whore becouse i also meet other guys (he was talking about some guys i know from gym or bjj club but i never meet with them outside of the gym/club).

I got furious and pushed him to the wall, he pushed me back and then i hit him in the face. He fell down and i have him some more beating before leaving him in the appartment.

I know i shouldn't have done this, but is it at least understandable?