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We had been flirt for a few months and have been dating for 2 months. A few days ago he came to me we had sex for the 3rd time his penis was down after 10 min sex and had difficulty getting hard etc. but we were fine when we left he said baby we will handle this etc. we kissed and hugged. The next day at work he was acting weird I saw him with the girl I see him a lot lately. I was upset and ignoring his attention. When I asked him you flirting with other girls in front of my eyes? he said she is married woman with a child you know that right and he looked at me I was acting werid. Normally we text each other when we leave work he would drop me off at home sometimes even though I went to the department he worked at he didn’t pay any attention I saw he had closed everywhere he was done leaving. Anyway I went out while waiting for a taxi he texted did you go out I said yes and he replied I went out just fine I just wrote but I saw him go 10 minutes before I left. He didn’t text I don’t know what he waited for. He said he was invited somewhere for Halloween that day and he said he was extremely tired did he go there I don’t know either. Anyway in morning I texted good morning honey how are you and he texted I am at work still tired etc. we talked very briefly. After couple hours he first posted a wise saying about ego on his Instagram story, then he posted a reel of a man eating pizza on a mountain at sunset, it says looking forr people to do this activity with. There is an app we use for couples, he changed his mood to ‘sad’. I don't understand what is his problem?

So, I'm quite sensitive when it comes to touch & my boyfriend of more than 2 years is more on the other end of the spectrum. When he's sober, we arrange this well & are both happy, except for the occasional reminder for him to not break my neck when bear hugging me.

I want to clarify, he is a very kind soul, just clumsy, so it's always good intentions from him! But sometimes he accidently hurts me, which annoys me if it's too frequent & that's case when he's drunk. The more drunk/drugged, the worse it gets, as you simply loose control over your body. He tries super hard to give me my space & be veeery careful touching me then, but it's just not working. I'm kind of conditioned at this point that when he comes close to me drunk, he'll likely step on my foot/squeeze me too hard/poke his nose in my eye/get his fingers stuck in my hair, so I tense up as soon as he comes near me in that state. The worst part is that he's especially vulnerable & affectionate when drunk, but I just have to defend my space & tell him off & he can tell I'm not fond of him, which hurts him a lot.

I tried to avoid his drunk/drugged persona (he knows all of this, we communicate about it), but I also don't wanna miss all fun evenings with our friends. Moreover, it's a part of him (which he does not want to give up in this part of his life) and so I sometimes want to be with him in that state too. But it often ends in him being hurt & in a bad mood the next day, trying to recover from the rejections of the previous night and then he's the one needing his space, so I can't hug or kiss him to show him affection then, or to say sorry.

I know the most obvious solution is for me to avoid him in that state. But I wonder if anyone else made such experiences & whether you think this makes us a bad match/myself kind of a bad girlfriend, at least for him, that I can't deal with this? It hurts me a lot to hurt him and I hate myself in those moments for being so mean, I just don't know another way.