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My boyfriend & I have been together for 5 years now, and we have had a fair share of ups & downs. At the beginning, he used to cause most of the issues due to insecurity or other things which I forgave him for & moved on from. Over time, I did individual therapy to get past old trauma and we went to couple’s counseling unofficially for a couple of months which both was extremely helpful since we do have communication issues.

Recently, we decided to go on a vacation & he decided that he wanted to go to Niagara Falls since he was picky about the destination. I created a google doc & everything for the trip to keep track of expenses & itinerary. Since I was in charge of the rental car, I got it, picked him up from the airport, & he had normal behavior. That ended when we missed a turn, & he advised me to do a 3-point turn to which the police pulled me over for. I blamed him immediately & he got extremely upset to the point he didn’t want to talk to me anymore even though he was still a little at fault regardless if it was my decision to do it.

Later on in the trip, he quickly realized he didn’t pack the right clothes so I gave him both of my jackets so he wouldn’t be cold. He tried to do the half sharing jacket thing, & I told him no since the jacket was wet & he got very upset again where he stated “you ruined the trip because of your attitude.” By the end of the trip, he stated how we’re “so different”, how he is unhappy due to thinking about all the bad things he’s done in the past to me, & wants me to be with someone better. I was shocked since I thought he moved on from it, & I advised him to start therapy since he stated he wasn’t sure what he wanted from life himself. He kept rejecting the idea of it stating how it wouldn’t help, but eventually agreed to try. I told him I didn’t want to break up since I personally wasn’t unhappy being with him & my happiness is my decision to which he said “it’s not about you, it’s me.” What do you think? We are long distance

This year I decided to move in with my Grandma and cousins. All my cousins are the same age, we grew up together and get along well. One of my cousins has a best friend who we see regularly and I grew quite fond of him. I had pushed my feelings to the side for a while but as our conversations with each other grew more frequent, my feelings grew. So one day, I confessed and he has also admitted to liking me too for a while.

We talked/flirted heavily with each other for like the first week after we confessed. We're both hopeless romantics, both fell hard and talked about a future together. However, he wanted to tell his best friend (my cousin) what was going on first before taking things further. Needless to say, things didn't go well. There's a 'rule' that my cousin's friends shouldn't go for close family and vice versa because in simple terms, it would complicate things. Also, I found out that this guy has a lot of issues in the romance dept and has led girls on in the past and his ex is kinda still in the picture (I've heard this from my cousins) there's a toxic pattern which he has never learned from apparently😭 He has told me that after talking to my cousin, he realised he wasn't ready to date despite his eagerness before. So we ended things on good terms and stopped talking. He's also not going to visit us as regularly.

Its been a week and my heart is SO heavy. I miss him so much. I grieve the future we could have had together cause I've literally never clicked with someone so fast.

I've talked to other close family about it and they think its none of my cousin's business, also dont understand why we can't figure things out together and believe my cousin is being manipulative. But my cousin would know his friend best right? There's also that bro code. I dont wanna ruin a close friendship.

But I don't know, should I text him? I miss talking to him, but it might further complicate an already fragile situation. Help?