Why is it considered so wrong for me to want to be beautiful and happy like 4 billion other people? Why have I been treated like a monster?

ElizaPam

As a child I kept telling myself that when I start puberty I'll finally stop wanting to be a girl but puberty made me suicidal. I was growing hair out of my chest and back. So I transitioned and stopped male puberty at 15. I don't understand why it's been so wrong for me to want to be beautiful and feminine. I have been treated like a monster, I am so hurt and traumatized. I just want to be a beautiful woman. I love looking in the mirror and seeing a beautiful woman. I love being desireable to men. I would rather die than be boring and grow hair out of my face and chest and back and ass cheeks and go bald. I never felt happy looking in the mirror until my cousin dressed me up like a girl when I was 7. Why would it be wrong for me to be a woman when 4,000,000,000 people are women? Why should I sit back being miserable and watching them live the life I dream of? Why have people been so mean to me and made me feel like a monster? I hurt so much. I struggle with feeling like a freak monster. I would rather die than be a boring, hairy, balding misogynist womanizing man. I love feeling beautiful and feminine. I am not a monster. I am special and beautiful. God didn't create me just to be miserable

Why is it considered so wrong for me to want to be beautiful and happy like 4 billion other people? Why have I been treated like a monster?
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