Why I'm happy with my low self esteem

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Why I'm happy with my low self esteem


I've always had low self esteem but I can be quite confident in my ablities and skills, but when it comes to personal traits - I don't welcome, enjoy or encourage praise. I find it very awkward and uncomfortable and I'd just rather it never happen. Most people will say that you should allow people to compliment you, accept the compliment, and I'm one of those people when giving advice to others, but for myself? No. The reason is that I KNOW I'm not a nice person, I know I'm not a good person. I'm not particulalry clever, pretty, funny, kind....I'm just a normal person. I'm just average. There isn't anything special about me, I'm not a special snowflake so I'm very happy with being realistic about my qualities and exagerations of this seem false. If I raised my self esteem then I feel as if I would have an inflated sense of self worth which isn't deserving, and noone likes an egotist.


I think people close to you try and complimnent you and build your self esteem because it satifies them, it makes them feel better. It makes them feel bad when you feel bad, and although that is a nice thing to do it makes me then feel bad that I'm making them feel bad - so the whole thing is a pointless cycle with me at the heart of it. I'd prefer it if people just accepted me for me, flaws and faults and all. I'm not the most beautiful person you've ever been with. I'm not the bestest friend in the world. I'm not an awesome sister. I'm just a terribly mediocre and underachieving human who doesn't like being lied to, whatever the intention behind it is.


The rest of you though - you're awesome! Keep it up!

Why I'm happy with my low self esteem
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