The Young Schizophrenic

Here is a story about schizophrenia. It is to show awareness and provide information. I am not making light of a mentall illness and I suggest you don't either.

The Young Schizophrenic.

My clock ticks away every second while I lay in bed and stare up at the ceiling. My eyes

follow every swirl and twist in the creamy pattern, counting every section of seven. Seven is a

good number. With the number seven, I’ll be safe. I can hear my parents fighting downstairs.

The soft blanket rubs against my skin and I snuggle in further, accidentally pulling my hair.

A light touch is felt on my head and I look up and around to see Nyx, the most beautiful

of my friends. She's sitting on the edge of my bed and she begins to pet my hair softly. The

gentle strokes calm me and her delicate fingers play with the long strands of my dark hair.

Purring to me in her soft voice she says, “Don’t worry, we’re here now.” Her voice trails

off while she strokes my hair and I stare at her perfect exotic features. Her beautiful mocha skin

makes me wish I looked like her. I sit up and look around to see the rest of my friends. Their

chatter and laughter drowns out the shouts of my parents behind closed doors and solid walls.

My friend Damian looks over and smiles with sympathy.

"Don't worry honey everything will be fine. I know it will." Damien says me.

Troy his cousin, looks at Damian and says to him, "Don’t be so prideful, you don’t know

everything."

With a glance between the two, Nyx interjects between the boys’ conversation. "Calm

down you children. This poor girl is only seven, she can only take so much at once." Nyx glares

at Troy who finally calmed down.

While Damian grins smugly he says. “See Troy? You’re just too mean to be around

children.” Troy’s brother Erebus rolls his eyes and walks to me to sit next to Nyx, ignoring his

brother’s anger problems. He side eyes her in jealously but suppresses it and places his large

hand upon mine.

"Everything's fine honey. I wish I had this problem as a child, I didn't know my parents."

Nyx slaps him on his arm and she gives him the look my mom gives my dad when he makes a

comment about my friends. With a low and dangerous voice she says "Shut up Erebus, the poor

girl is frightened. Don't be so jealous of everyone."

“Jealousy is different from envy, honey.” Erebus says in a teasingly sweet voice,

“Jealousy is the reaction to a threat of losing something, usually someone. While envy is a

reaction to lacking something.” Nyx ignores Erebus completely and brushes my hair from my

face. Her fingers brush my skin and the blanket slides down, allowing cold air to waft across my

bare legs, since I’ve grown out of my nightgown. Nyx's cousin Nala, fixes her very expensive

dark purple dress and shifts from heeled foot to heeled foot standing by my door.

"I don't know maybe I could go to her mom’s room and get some new jewelry." Nala

says with hope but it’s dashed with a look from her cousin. "Nyx I haven't bought or stolen

anything in days." she says in exasperation. With a shake of her head, Nyx waves her away and

she lays down next to me, her warmth making me sigh in comfort. Just watching everyone, I

keep my mouth shut and let Nala do as she pleases. Nala walks around my room, picking up a

doll or a piece of my tea set every now and then. Derek sits on the floor playing with my deck of

cards, playing some gambling game he said. I didn’t understand when he attempted to teach me

so I stopped paying attention. Nyx told me that day that Derek had a gambling problem and she

seemed upset with him. He has lost and won a lot of stuff from his ‘bad habit’ she told me and it

isn’t healthy for him to have his life revolve around it. Sometimes Daddy leaves the house in the

middle of the night, maybe it’s to go gambling. He will open the door letting in a cold draft and

shrug on his large coat before leaving, forgetting to lock the door.

With an adjustment of my legs and blanket, Nyx watches me through dark and long

lashes. She's laying on her side with her back to the other five while Erebus sits cross legged just

glaring at Nala, wishing he was as understanding. Lastly there's the friend everyone hates but

tolerates. Isaac leans against the wall, falling asleep from boredom.

Slurring from his half-conscious state he says to us, "Maybe we should go talk to them."

Nyx sits up and all seven of my best friends trade looks. Nyx looks to Erebus and they

nod, looking to Derek who paused in his tirade of cards and money gaming. They all nod and

look to Nala who was fixing her make up. Applying another layer of lip gloss, she nods before

she sets it down with a solid thunk on my princess dresser. Damian, Troy, Nyx, Nala, Erebus and

Derek all stop what they're doing to move to my bedrooms door.

"Baby girl we'll be right back okay? We're gonna go talk to your Mama and Papa." Nyx

looks back at me with a sweet smile plastered on but I can tell it's fake.

"Are you going to hurt them?" I ask in a small and shaky voice. Worry seeps into me and

my eyes widen as I am about to chase them while the others leave and Nyx stays behind. The

heat from my blanket escapes as it falls to the floor from my sudden movement.

"No darling no, we're gonna get them to stop fighting. I promise, everything will be better

then." Nyx blows me a kiss and gracefully walks out, shutting the door with a soft click, making

me feel more trapped than she meant to.

I lay back in my bed and scratch at my belly while I think. I sigh and turn on my side,

staring at my blank pink wall right by my bed. I cuddle under my remaining Sleeping Beauty

blanket and stop myself from crying. I wish Mommy and Daddy would stop arguing all the time.

Daddy mentions a mental in-shta-tushion. I don't know what that is but Mommy doesn't think I

need to go there. Daddy says how my Doctor friend Tate believes I have a mental illness,

whatever that is.

Daddy likes to call me something like 'skitzo' behind my back to Mommy and she gets

mad which starts lots of fighting. I don't understand why. I don't know what I did wrong to make

Daddy call me names and why Mommy cries every time I tell her about my friends. I don't know

what's wrong with me. What did I do wrong to make Daddy and Mommy hate me so much?

Nyx walks in and closes her eyes while she shuts the door. She walks over to me and

hugs me tightly to her bosom, sitting next to me on my bed. The bed shifts and I fall into her slim

body, wishing she was my mom. She feels more like my mom than my real mom does

sometimes.

"Hi Baby girl, the others are downstairs. I wanted to tell you that you shouldn’t be scared.

Believe me, none of this is your fault. You must love yourself, even with everything going on.

Look upon the shapes and colors of the world and embrace them with a beauty that's all your

own. I know life isn't easy, and I want you to know that your parents love you dearly. When they

look at you they see the things they love, they created you baby girl. You are their world, their

pride and joy. Just remember, your imperfections and you; are the perfection in the air around

you. Breathe them in like the smell of autumn and its dancing leaves. The winters breath harsh

across your face. You must love yourself, because you are beautiful. Your individuality makes

up Nature as does the soft downy snow in the winter and scent of the sweet flowers as they

spring from the moist earth. I love you darling, don’t forget that.”

The end.

This story is to show what it is like to be schizophrenic. It cannot be cured, only treated with medicene. Schizophrenia is a real mental illness and needs to be treated as such.


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  • Mental illness is one of lifes great tragedies

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  • I won't say too much - I gave you my thoughts when I read it on your Wattpad - Hope people enjoy it as much as I did - Good work

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  • My father has schizophrenia and he killed someone. Now everyone I tell that to is afraid to be around me and it's annoying as fuck. I don't have it, but I could get it, and reading this story helps a lot.

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  • or you could watch this with headphones on https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qb8wQjwVu2g and imagine that that's everyday of your life with no escape.

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    • If you could somehow harness the ability to project subconscious images and audio to a conscious production, you'd have a great gift.

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