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I'm 20 years old and a 2/10 in looks my whole life women have always avoided me or was openly rude to me even though I talk to everyone with respect, understand boundaries and i dress nice and have very good hygine girls sometimes compliment my outfits on tiktok and other social medias but a no girl has ever complimented my outfits or even said hello in real life, like usually when I'm out with male friends there has been a lot of times when we bump into some female friends of theirs and usually the girls just give me a disgusted look or say "You can go" or "someone inside is calling you" and it's been going on for many years and all the girls in my old school and collge have avoided me not one of them even said hello to me and there has been a few times where I've said hi to them and other girls which some was friends of friends and they all ignore or they say hi back but ignore and avoid me the next day and i see many of unkempt average to below average looking dudes be a lot more successful with women than me so that's a big shock

Most of my life, I've never thought i wanted kids cause I barely wanted friends. Looking at relationships I had, which isn't many, just 3.

All long term, but only 1 mentioned wanting kids. She did for a time, open me to it but infidelity on her part led to our relationship ending a little shy of a year.

Now as I try to pave a path forward for myself, I still have to juggle with the problem that male CF patients born in the late 1990s only live 40, maybe 45 years. And I'm 26 now, and way behind the curve to due bad decisions I've made in my life.

This combined with my status as being single makes children a laughable proposition. I can't imagine myself ever ready to handle responsibilities of being a parent. My longevity is a serious consideration as well as me being behind in life.

So I'm gonna lean towards best case scenario, I've got a wife with me when my time ends. And that is what I want most, a spouse. But what my last relationship proved is I'm somewhat amenable, if I love the woman. In that this children issue would not turn into some ultimatum.

I know better than to do something that moronic when the relationship is that special. I'd just have to allow our motivation for eachother to succeed to get me to where I feel ready to take that next step. Do you want kids?