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I am both on the Autistic Spectrum and have severe treatment-resistant Bipolar.

After 25 jobs and with the threat of my disability benefits being yanked from me due to having too many work attempts, I accepted fate and now I barely leave the house and remain dependent on my disability benefits. On the brightside, I am now married, so that huge burden of trying to find a wife has been lifted off my shoulders.

Now there are more profound issues that have worsened. My moods have become severe, I cannot handle being "overstimulated" with stressing situations or I fall apart, and now I have unrestrained meltdowns in public.

As I have grown older and more distant from normal life social situations, I have found it incredibly challenging to handle them. Masking my deficiencies have become increasingly difficult too. I used to be able to play it off well until I couldn't no longer and people started to notice. Now, it is always a challenge.