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I am 31 years old. I have held 25 jobs since the age of 15. I have been hospitalized in a psych hospital more than 20 times. In my late teens/early 20s, I became obsessed with finding another virgin to lose my virginity to. I lost my virginity at age 20 to a 16 year old young woman, and later I was arrested and convicted of stalking after trying to desperately and pathetically win her love. I ended up losing my EMT license after the entire ordeal. Then I went into software engineering and because I became desperate after trying to find a woman without a romantic past (after realizing being a woman's first love was more important than taking her virginity), I managed to get myself into an even more troublesome situation. I ended up getting kicked out of the software engineering community and being blacklisted all around town.

I finally managed to find the love of my life, and we are now married. We are each other's first real relationship. I regret all my stupidity from the past, but how as it stands, I am 31 years old and barely leave the house. Now I just collect disability.

After all, it's like guessing or daydreaming your own play, your own script. How overthinking or how perfectionist or spontaneous losing virginity in the 20s or 30s can be. The funny things and cooler things are *it's not as awkward as those who lost it earlier, as now I live in my own house or I even rent my own apartment or I even own my own car" in other words, being 20s/30s losing virginity, ain't like sneaking around and having broke and no assets. Aka can't afford dates, still in college/university and not even a dorm room to bring a hot date or hot partner back to lol for some... television. Lol.

Back many years ago when I was 20, I was going in and out of psych hospitals and suicidal because I couldn't find a virgin to lose my virginity to.

One day, I met a girl on a dating app and really hit it off. She was 16 and the daughter of a paramedic. I was an EMT at the time and young myself. We were only 4 years apart in age.

Fast forwarding, we talked for a long time and we agreed to meet. I got us a hotel room and I drove 8 hours from my state to hers. We went on a date then went to the hotel and we ended up losing our virginities to each other.

After our weekend fling, she told me she did not want a relationship with me. I was heartbroken. We continued to talk for 2 weeks until one day I made her made her angry and she said she never wanted to see me again.

I was in college and 8 months later, I decided to find where she lived and drove up there again with a friend to ask her out again and apologized. Her dad answered the door and called the cops. I went back to my hotel and the police knock on the door and draw guns on me like a fugitive. I was arrested for stalking and I was later placed in shackles and transported to the county jail.