How to fix this about myself?

[Anonymous]

So I was in a slight relationship for the first time during last summer. I did things I never would’ve expected. I went kind of crazy. I said the most off the wall things when I felt he was trying to play me and I was constantly asking for reassurance like I was being crazy. How do I never let that happen again? It’s like a person I never even met before. Mind you it was also losing my virginity during this relationship but i don’t want anyone else to experience this. Not me not anybody. Is it a mental issue? Attachment issue? What was it I want to work on it? I know I coudl ask a therapist or something but I’m in college broke and really looking for affordable advice

[Bethany22]

I would check with a counsellor available to you for free at your college to see if you have a mild case of borderline personality disorder and your boyfriend was your current 'favorite person', just to rule it out. Not everyone has as extreme symptoms as characters you see on tv. The good news is, you're not a threat to yourself, but the bad news is, therapists won't feel the need to give you the same amount of attention as someone with extreme symptoms of the disorder.

[serious_miss419]

Don’t go extreme with mental issue.
Check if you got pms!
A first time could be a contributing factor too.
Be kind to yourself. You’re reaching out!
You got this 💪

[Guy13]

see a counselor.

[Anonymous]

I don't know what made you that angry but if he's loyal to you then trust him a little more