Was I wrong ?
Again, more of a rant and an answer for all that may of wondered what happened and bothered to input there opinion. Thanks to all who inputted and tried to help , Yeah, I'm shattered so be aware.
I was wrong.
For the first time in a long time I don't have anything to look forward to. No warm thought that we may talk, or even hook up.
Nothing to comfort me when things are down " Hey at least that girl likes you "
I don't trust myself now, my instincts or feelings.
Was I wrong ?
It rained and I sheltered YOU under my umbrella. You forgot to talk to me but you turned to your friend so giddy and happy " He's doing it deliberately ! ". Your friend nodded agreeing and two of your other friends - who didn't shelter you by the way - seemed to find it hard to hold back ever widening grins. I hit the jackpot I thought.
Was I wrong when you came to introduce yourself too me ?
The fuck up there was that I didn't realize I was standing behind good friend of yours, so when you first waved and said Hi. I was so happy and wrapped ready to receive you with open arms. Then your friend turned around and I just disregarded and thought you're going up to her. " Hi, Susan how are you ? "
I worked out later that it was " Hi, I'm Susan. How are you ? ". ( Because I also learned said friend is Sarah )
Was I wrong when you cut through an arcade, probably ran, so you could come out of the street just in front of me so I would say Hi ? You don't walk that fast. I generally do, I mean you're around 5'2" and I'm 6'2".
NO I wasn't wrong at all..... something happened and I guess it's because you didn't appreciate me saying something to your friend. But I had too, I never saw you. Now I've seen you but you're lack of approach or even ANYTHING to let me know to approach you, signals it all and this is one I did not misinterpret.
Even as I write this, NOTHING makes sense. But it doesn't have to. I would not see any reason why I am wrong after 3 days where you did nothing. Not even send your friends after me or even just be lame ( but cute) and pass a note.
Nothing but hurt and sorrow.... it will pass. But If I don't stop writing now my heart will break again.
The End is just another beginning . Thank you and Good bye Susan, I truly wish the best for you.