The Tale Of A Broken Heart

[CHARismatic110]

I never wanted to be the girl with the broken heart

I never wanted to be the girl with so much bitterness that even a lemon seemed sweet

I never wanted to be the girl with a smile that didn't reach her eyes

I never wanted to be the girl that stopped believing in love

I NEVER wanted to be her...

But I am her and she is me

Tell me...

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep at night?

I have

Have you ever felt so alone that your soul ached yet you were sitting in a room full of people?

I have

Have you ever been so desperate to stop the pain that you create your own?

Because I certainly have...

Though the scars on my arms have nothing on the scars that cover my heart

Gives a whole new meaning to scar tissue

I look in the mirror and I don't even recognize myself some days

It's like I'm there, but I'm not

The lights are off, but somebody's home

Every now and then I get a glimpse of my old self

She smiles at me

Such a sad smile...

She remembers happier times

Just a quick glimpse and she's gone

And I'm back to being that girl that I never wanted to be

I grew up believing in fairytales

Too bad they don't teach you about nightmares huh

I grew up believing in that reach for the stars, over the fence, world series kind of love

Too bad nobody told me about striking out

Do you know what it feels like to never feel good enough?

I do

Do you know what it feels like to always give, but never receive?

I do

Do you know what it feels like to just want to be ok but feeling like you never will be?

Dear God do I know that feeling!

"Just deal with it" they say

"Get over it already"

But if you know like I know

We rarely ever recover from a broken heart...

Had so much on my mind at 5am, so I started writing. This the result.

Stay classy GaGers. ✌

#CHARismaticOut

[Spirit_Reborn]

Gosh being there, am there except sometimes I don't remember my old smiling self - Don't know what is going on but something has snapped in my brain last few days, hope it is just an episode. A kind offer a few cans of beer on Saturday night has tipped me over the edge, I have been drunk and miserable since.

[CHARismatic110]

It's an awful feeling. I hope it gets better for you soon.

[Spirit_Reborn]

I am tired - Going to deactivate and come back when I feel better

[CHARismatic110]

😞😞

[Tdieseler]

nothing a couple shots won't cure

[Victorianne]

That's very emotional , i can see it is written from your heart. It has such deep meaning. I imagine a hell of a lot of people will relate to it. I do agree... some emotional pain never heals. No one ever truly knows the depths of another persons emotional scars :)

[CHARismatic110]

Thank you. And I agree, you never really know just how emotionally scarred a person is.

[Victorianne]

You're welcome! That's so true! Reading that reached my heart.♥

[CHARismatic110]

Awww, well I'm glad it moved you, even if it is rather dark.

[CœurRosé]

Sorry to hear you're going through some troubles. There's always a spot in my PMs if you need it.
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[CHARismatic110]

Thank you! *hugs*

[Tdieseler]

Dang girl... i had tears in my eyes just reading that. I have emotional blockers to stop me from feeling the EXACT SAME SHIT you just wrote...
Ugh... that stuff just hurts...

[CHARismatic110]

Indeed

[Tdieseler]

crap... now i gotta go build up the blockers again... you gotta stop

[CHARismatic110]

Shouldn't be too hard

[Tdieseler]

its actually quite difficult... but i can expedite the process with some liquid help.

[CHARismatic110]

Bottoms up.

[Tdieseler]

... and you know it.

[SunsetRose]

I'm so sorry Char. This makes me so sad but it beautifully written.

[CHARismatic110]

Thank you, that means a lot. And don't be sad!

[JSmuve]

I don't know what's sadder, the words you wrote or the fact that I can see myself in them.

[CHARismatic110]

Awww, not you too.

[JSmuve]

Sadly yes.

[Zorax]

Nice Take, I know how you feel, my heart was broken too, four times :(

[CHARismatic110]

Thanks dude. And yeah, it never gets easier.

[Zorax]

You're welcome, yep, I know...

[This_is_my_username]

I'm sorry to hear that. Hopefully everything works out.

#BrokenHeartsSuck

[CHARismatic110]

Thanks girl. And yeah, they do.

[takumii]

I used to be like you.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

But you're dying everyday, isn't it?

[CHARismatic110]

Pretty much

[douride2]

Just a line to let you know I read this & it touched me close.

[CHARismatic110]

Thank you. I appreciate you taking the time to read it.

[JamesDylan1990]

Sorry! my heart was broken at 22 - never again to fully trust women. I haven't had much luck after.

[CHARismatic110]

Yeah, trust once broken is almost impossible to repair.

[JamesDylan1990]

I was dating a girl from my home town turns out she was dating 2 guys at once

[CHARismatic110]

Oh wow

[JamesDylan1990]

yep. her loss. I'm awesome lol.

[EmpatheticLady]

I'm here for you, Char. <3

[CHARismatic110]

Thanks Cookie

[ThisDudeHere]

I'm sorry :(

[CHARismatic110]

Happens to the best of us right? But as always, thank you.

[Paris13]

CHAR? Are you Okay? @CHARismatic110 xx

[CHARismatic110]

Dealing with a few things, but I'm ok P. Thanks for asking ❤

[Paris13]

OMG, sweetie, I am so sorry, I nearly fell off my Chair.. message me if you need me Char. xx

[CHARismatic110]

Awww, no falling! And thanks for that, I will.

[Paris13]

Great, my sweet friend @CHARismatic110 xx

[iFarted]

ALL I WANT FOR MY BIRTHDAY IS A NICE BOOTY GIRL

[JSmuve]

I'll take one of those as well

[iFarted]

@JSmuve there's enough for the two of us bro

[JSmuve]

Noice! Big booty bitches for fart and me

[iFarted]

@JSmuve nono no booty too big, I wouldn't even know what to do with it.

[JSmuve]

Use it like a bean bag chair and just sink into it

[iFarted]

@JSmuve But I don't wanna suffocateee

[JSmuve]

Thats just the price you gotta pay for dat ass. Just snorkle it like a champ, fart.

[iFarted]

@JSmuve Teach me the ways master

[JSmuve]

Alright, grab your diving gear. We're gonna get wet.

[iFarted]

@JSmuve WOOOOOOO

[CHARismatic110]

I don't even wanna know lol