I thought he was the perfect guy for me. I put him on this pedestal and allowed him to take over my life. I was just so in to him that I wasn't noticing how he was slowly destroying me. I wasn't seeing how he could be such a negative influence until my sense of logic finally kicked back in and my heart shut up for a while. I finally realized how he was making my life miserable and I wasn't aware of it.
I won't go into the details, but I will say that I literally wasted two years of my life on some guy who didn't even give two f***s about me. He had me on this emotional roller coaster and the sad part is that I allowed him to do that to me. But then I realized that enough is enough and it was high time for me to move on and I did.
Ever since that day I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my shoulders, I felt happy again. I gained back my motivation and optimism. I was able to focus on my studies in university again. I have never been more happy. I noticed that there were a whole lot more guys out there who were a thousand times better than him and actually are interested in me. I don't regret leaving him behind me at all, and if anything I feel like I've become a much stronger woman because I can now look him in the eyes and say "you can't hurt me anymore". Or as Demi Lovato says;
I'll walk right up to him and put one finger in the air
Lol. I really hope that anyone else out there who is in a toxic relationship will have the courage and strength to stand up for themselves and to walk away from this relationship stronger than ever before. This also applies to friendships as well. Sometimes the person you call your "friend" may in fact turn out to be your enemy.