I tried being friends with my ex & it backfired. This was my first relationship so I didn't know. Can I mend my relationship with him in the future?

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Hi guys. My ex and I tried to be friendly/hang out in our friend group again a few months after the breakup. It was a few months after, but feelings quickly returned as I was still attracted to him. I tried to keep cool, be calm/friendly, but found myself getting jealous of him already when he was talking to other girls. He talked about other girls he was dating a lot and openly, & assumed we were cool, so I got real uncomfortable.

Obviously I now know I shouldn't have done this, I should've just said I wasn't cool & left, but I tried to ride it out. It backfired & we got into an awful argument. I tried apologizing profusely, but he hasn't spoken to me since. I regret not telling him that I was still uncomfortable. I think he hates me and wants nothing to do with me, & will never speak to me again. I'm pretty sure he hates me & I feel so so bad.

I have regrets/cry almost every week over this. I should've just left. I hate hate hate being on bad terms with people, so this hurts me so bad. I hate burning bridges, & I can't get rid of this feeling that I now lost a friend. It's been months now & I feel so sick. Is there any way to remedy this in the future?
I tried being friends with my ex & it backfired. This was my first relationship so I didn't know. Can I mend my relationship with him in the future?
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