Didn't I mean anything to him?

cadyyyyyy
I recently broke up with this guy who played me like i was nothing and i was in a relationship with him for one year and then i found out he was in a relationship with another girl too at least or even more. He cheated horribly he already flirted and run after numerous girls and because of that i broke up and he blamed all on me and he doesn't even care to say sorry. Now i also found out that he was in a relationship with this girl during our relationship and also they broke up during those times and he begged her like a dog to come back to him while he acted he really loved me. He acted i was the only one in his life and that he wanted to marry me. Andhe was texting this girl to come back to him she didn't even reply she told him she had moved on and he begged her he couldn't live without her he hurted himself and she was the only girl he would ever be in a relationship. He never called me during our relationship giving some silly excuses like he didn't like talking on calls and was a busy person and he called her everyday even when she didn't pick up he gave her 20 to 30 missed calls. We broke up before too he said the same but with less effort. Now even after i found his cheating he didn't say sorry nor felt guilty he still blamed me and never admitted to cheating even after i caught him red handed and he still put blames on me and avoiding that he cheated instead of saying sorry so i gave up asking why he did that to me. He did it and he knew exactly what he did. But i feel like a complete fool. I was so loyal and avoided every other guys. I chose him among all of them and still got disrespected and fooled and used and taken advantage of my kindness and got treated like a trash. I feel so unwanted and dumb. I have lowered my standards to the lowest that i don't even wanna get out of my room and face people. My self confidence is 0. And how will i ever trust a guy again?
Didn't I mean anything to him?
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