4 years relation, I moved 300 miles away for her. I helped her to get out of depression (she used to self-harm). She told me she has anxiety of intimacy and needs time. We were seeing each other 3-4 times/month. She promised we'll see each other often then she would say she is busy and we won't meet for 2 months because she has to focus on the exams (it was true though). She would call to me every single day and talk for hours, but I felt like we're falling apart because of distance. I waited another year, I would speak to her about her needs, I was trying to be the perfect boyfriend. I would be fresh/clean, I cooked her favourite meals, I was asking her out, I was showing her love, I was holding her hand, hugging, kissing, I was asking about her day, I was supporting her studies, I was taking days off to help her with exams, teaching her foreign language. I literally tried everything. She would invite me for sleepovers and we were having a good time - but every time I had to leave I knew we won't see each other for next weeks. I guess after 3 years of relationship we should be seeing each other more often. We both had all weekends free. She kept saying that meeting 2-4 times a month is enough. Her family loved me. I asked her if she's happy with me - she said yes but her words didn't match the actions. The owner sold the appartment, I told her I need to move out far. I asked about living together/future. She said "No, don't even think about it since im religious" and it's so hard to deal with my decision (I couldn't hold it financially and mentally anymore). She would cry over the phone but I told her that we have completely different needs and plans for the future, she only said that I'm right and she understands my decision. I loved her so much, but it still kills me inside that she wouldn't do anything for me while I put so much effort for her. I tried everything and nothing helps me to get over it, what else can I do? Does it mean I took wrong decision?
I broke up with my girlfriend one year ago but despite the fact relationship being a little toxic I still can't get it out of my head. Did I do wrong?
