I married my boyfriend despite all his jealousies insecurities & anger issues. I have anger issues too. But he humiliates me. On restaurants, on cars infront of his family he shouted at me. he commented about my dress if I wore a new one to my work. if I let my hair down he commented. in rage he said I'm going to cheat with my male colleagues. last time he was delusional because I didn't tell him I'm going to the atm on my way home. he screamed ar me Infront of the house and told me I was on a bike with another guy. he went home snatched my phone to see if I called anyone. he always check my phone anyway. he wanted to punch me many times saying I'll punch you but he doesn't create violence.
I let our families involved because he told his family I'm hanging out with boys and didn't tell him I was going to the atm. Which was 5 minutes from my home. He shouted on the top of his lungs and wanted to come at me but his family stopped him. to them this kinda violence is normal. i called my family and they came and I told them everything. he told them I'm dating my ex boyfriend. they took me home.
Now he's repentant. i told him his repenting because I mentioned divorce. he cries and begs but my heart doesn't melt. he said I've become so hardhearted. I don't like him. Let alone love him. but I gotta go back. because what he did isn't enough reason to divorce. he says his mom will start having her bipolar fits if I divorce him. He cries and says this time he won't be able to save her. She'll go totally mad. he says I never loved him that's why I'm not willing to give him a last chance.
I probably will go back. they tell me he's going to a psychiatrist and I must go with him. he talked shit about my sister and my family. He said he'd beat everyone of us up. now he says he doesn't know why he said those things. im going back with a heavy heart. i already have depression but this time I don't know how to get back up. i don't wanna be the cause of his family's destruction.
