I was on and off again with this man for a year. It was such a toxic cycle, and I didn't realize how bad he was for my mental health until I finally got the strength to let him go. It went from love bombing me, to ignoring me, to apologizing, to proclaiming his love, to ghosting again. The inconsistency DESTROYED me.. anxiety, feeling worthless, depression, blaming myself, clinging onto him in my mind, etc. I was always attentive to him when he needed me, jumped over hoops, and was sweet to him.. I finally came to my senses and saw how much of an idiot I was for giving a narcissist all of my energy when he wasn't reciprocating.
He sent me a simple message. Instead of being attentive and nice, I totally ignored him. I didn't ignore him to be petty, but just because I was so tired of the same cycle. I was so mentally checked out. He blocked me, and to be honest it is a relief.