Break Up & Divorce

Am I a bad person if I am glad that my now ex-wife had a miscarriage (we were still married when she lost the "baby")?

After we had been married for a few months, my wife at the time (now ex-wife) stopped taking her birth control pills completely without my knowledge, and naturally, she ended up becoming pregnant soon after. I do not know for certain, but I was probably the biological father of her "unborn baby" (to the best of my knowledge, she had not started cheating on me just yet). I was VERY upset that she was pregnant because I never wanted to have kids (and once she told me that she was not going to have an abortion, I was actually planning on taking my own life). Fortunately, she had a miscarriage after she had been pregnant for about 2 months and I was TOTALLY relieved (so, obviously, I did not take my own life). All these years later (we divorced back in 1998), I find myself thinking about that unborn child that was probably mine, and try as I might, I cannot feel any sort of sadness and/or remorse and/or anger regarding the miscarriage. I am just glad that the child was never born and that I never had to be a father (or "father figure", if it turned out I was not the biological father). So does this make me a bad person? I asked a few of my relatives and a few of my closest friends what they really thought, but I got several different opinions. What made me really start to wonder about all of this is when I saw the scene in the movie "Heaven Is For Real" where the kid meets his unborn older sister in heaven. I am not sure how I would react to meeting that unborn child or if it would even want to meet me, given that I never wanted it in the first place and that I am glad it was not born.

Am I a bad person if I am glad that my now ex-wife had a miscarriage (we were still married when she lost the "baby")?
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