I made a mistake and I want him back.

Anonymous
I broke up with my boyfriend of 4 Years basically because his best friend told me he is back with his old girlfriend (before me) and I saw her number on his phone where else he said they don't talk anymore. we were living together 2 days before I moved I saw his ex girl's number on his phone but I didn't ask him about it and a week later his friend told me he is back with his ex. remember: I have moved 3 hours away from him because of the new job. Long story short, I wasn't thinking and I snapped instead of talking to him ( because his friend has always been making stories even about me ) and I broke up with him. I waited 3 days till I told him I missed him and wanted to still be with him. He said I broke his heart and he didn't want to see me because he was angry and needed time to think. So a few more days go by and I told him I was on my way over to his house. This was about a week since we broke up. Keep in mind throughout all of this I was constantly texting him and not giving him the space he wanted. I showed up at his house and he told me he is heartbroken and can't sleep at night, then he goes to work during the day and gets angry thinking about the whole situation. I told him I love him and I want to be with him. He told me he is really confused and doesn't know what he wants anymore. He still needs time and wants me to respect that. He said he loves me but we both aren't happy. He is also a firm believer that if you break up it's for a reason... I leave and of course the next 2 days I constantly text him. He doesn't respond until I begged him to let me know if he still loves me and I won't quit until I have an answer. Over a few texts back, he said it was all my fault I started this the first place and he said he didn't say ihe doesn't love me. but I started this. Did he actually mean he doesn't love me anymore? I don't believe it because I KNOW he did love me, so how can he not in 14 days. Did I push him to say that so I would leave him alone? To make matters worse, I snapped once again and sent him a bunch of insulting texts which I know hurt him. I love him more than anything. I screwed up and I'm willing to get help to control my temper. We had no major problems besides my temper and insecurities. I've left him alone since then about a month but I am going absolutely crazy, I might have lost the love of my life, and it was all my fault!. when he phones it all about my mail or my things since we have been living together. and the converstion is just simple we not fighting or being mean he will ask if I am ok! and definately my voice sounds fine, and we will talk about whatever he phoned me about but not about the relationship.

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He text me and said I should stop telling people that he dumped me.(which I never did) and he said he miss me as always. What is this ? He called me eailer that night and said he is checking if I am fine. What should I do? What is happening ?
I made a mistake and I want him back.
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