This might not relate to everyone (it wont) but if those three words fit your own situation then you might like this. Or hate it. It's really up to you.
Im for one, If I could be a word, I would be insecure. I am the definition of low self esteem. I literally purposely busted my head open, because I've never had a big desire of not hurting myself. I pretty much view myself less than human. I feel convinced I was never actually supposed to exist. Now I'm getting help I'm not all that crazy,im just proving the point.
You say, okay cool, you're insecure so what? Then ill add another issue
Sexual confusion
As in no, I do not know my sexuality and do not know how to date or attract people. Therefore I am confused and I don't know what to do. And this bothers me more than anyone thinks. My day could instantly become bad by just thinking about it.
Last thing,
Im kinda lonely
And this is the worst combination for me right now. Especially in highschool. If you have kids, make sure they don't go through this. If you have a younger sibling make sure they don't feel this. It's absolutely horrible.
So with that being said ,all three of those are a bad combination
It sucks seeing a couple kiss and you wonder how the hell couples happen, because everytime you've ever liked someone you remained rejected until the point you shrivel up and hide Everytime someone attractive walks by because you know if you went for it, it's just another rejection waiting to happen. This might be why I'm kind of insecure at least about dating.
When someone asks me what gender I l like I don't no how to answer
When someone asks me about dating
I avoid the conversation as much as possible with the reply of "I'm not the dating type"
I lied. I do want to date. It makes me feel so childish that's I've never even been asked out to one before. It also makes me wonder if I'm just not good enough then I suddenly feel worthless and insecure.
Now I'm into girls I've just never had any experience with them. How will I know for sure if I'm bi or just in a phase if I don't find out?
It feels like ill Nnever find out.
The confusion is annoying and embarrassing.
Now if I didn't have normal hormones this wouldn't be a problem. But I do. Im getting to the age where I want a companion or someone close. The only issue is, I don't know how to do that. So that natural need will have to bother the shit of of me and torture me until I become attractive and not feel like such a low standard have-not. Maybe I am? There's nothing I can do about my dark skin and my round baby face. So I'm stuck.
I grew up as a small girl thinking It was wrong to talk to guys I still do. Since apparently all of them are the same and want sex. The funny thing is, they will.pick out a girl they want for who they are and soon marry them. Am I too unattractive for that?
It's like I'm invisible to guys in real life. I even button down my shirt to showy boobs and still no one even looks at me. I don't get it. Not even a fuckboy would look at me. Yet no one calls me ugly! Maybe I'm just a have-not. It's probably be cause I'm black and white girl are worshiped at my school. Understandable. But why do the most unattractive girls get approached? Why do good looking guys want to date them? What's wrong with me? I've never been approached before and no one has ever asked for my number. Im so confused on that. I must have no chance of getting on a date do I?
I've talked to this guy at best buy one day, we got flirty, well at least my sister said we did. But he next day I realized he's like that with everyone. He didn't seem very interested he was just friendly. I was a little awkward but. Well, maybe I'm just not cute or hot enough for a guy to like me back.
Now with girls, I can talk to them. But I don't know if they're gay. I will flirt with on but she thinks its mutual
I even try going on line. Nothing
How am.i supposed to know what I want if I don't even get to try.
Anyway, this isn't a good spot to be in you feel constantly unattractive and you feel like a piece of trash next to any couple.
NO MEAN OR RUDE COMMENTS/OPINIONS PLEASE.
Don't make fun of me either, I get enough of that on here. Thanks.
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i told you something similar already. you're only sixteen. focus on your interests and most importantly school. don't mindthis crap about relationships. it'll come when you're older