Firstly, just because I’m worried about the state of where things are going between me and this guy doesn’t mean I dislike him or am trying to find an excuse to end things. I would like to continue talking and see where things go. I just feel an intuitive sense that he was interested at first but isn’t anymore. I think I bore him. We talk every day and I’m okay with just being friends and slowing down. But I would rather not. I don’t want him to end things either though, and I have a feeling that if I don’t just end it somehow I’m going to get ghosted. I’m irritated as well because it’s another wasted attempt. I’m starting to hate myself and lowkey it’s a personal problem so it’s not even something I wish to discuss with him. My self esteem should not be correlated with any man’s behavior but lately it’s just been rocky. I’ve been feeling really bad about myself for a while and he was refreshing to talk to. If he does ghost me it’s going to actually hurt this time. I know the only way to avoid it is to end things first. Petty but effective. However, I like him enough to not want to hurt his feelings or reject him in any kind of way. I don’t have any desire to hurt him but the thing is everybody doesn’t have the same kind of heart as me. The amount of times I have went against my intuition to give a man the benefit of doubt when I felt the distance between us ALWAYS led to me being ghosted and seeing it coming but slowing the last few guys I dated to just do it anyway so I wouldn’t end up hurting them or rejecting them.
I’m worried he is going to ghost me. How do I handle this situation?
