Do I like him or do I just miss him?

Anonymous

So since i was a kid my family and my childhood best friend's family have been shipping us together his grandmother even wants me to marry him. my mm is indifferent about the whole thing and my dad isn't fond of the idea but I have always seen him as a little brother and I feel since everyone has been pushing us together that kinda made me mad and I just refused to like him back even he doesn't hide the fact that he likes me. I just feel like I didn't reciprocate his feelings because everyone wanted us to be together without even asking my opinion but now that he's joining the marines I kinda miss him I don't think it in a romantic way or anything like that , I just look forward to his letters more like a friend because I've liked people before and this feeling isn't even close to that. Do I like him, I don't think about him every day I only think about him if someone brings him up or I see the snow globe he bought me or places we frequented together but nothing romantic I'm sure of it the idea of us having sex weirds me out. but I do feel myself smiling when he sends me letters but I don't think it's that I like like him but I do like him but like him.

Do I like him or do I just miss him?
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